I love you. • Noah Grossman (completed)

chapter 28.

day one.
Jazmin's pov
I barely got any sleep last night due to overthinking but it's okay I'm used to it. It's still dark. I wonder what time it is. I get up a little and see that Shayne and Courtney are cuddled up sleeping. I pout. I miss that. They look adorable. I look down and see that Noah isn't there. I wonder where he is. I sigh and climb down the ladder carefully. I check my phone and it was 6:50 am. I padded over to my suitcase and picked out the clothes I was going to wear. I made my way to the bathroom and took a quick shower. Once I was done I changed and did my makeup. I did very simple makeup. I brushed my wet hair and topped it off with a beanie. I put on my uggs, grab my phone and leave the room. I walked quickly and quietly passed the rooms trying not to wake people up. I walked downstairs and saw a light coming from the kitchen. I walked closer and saw that no one was there. I saw coffee already made. I shrugged and poured myself a cup. I took a blanket from the couch and went to the balcony. I opened the door and saw snow falling from the sky. I looked over to my left and saw Noah sitting with a blanket looking at me surprised. "Oh shit sorry I didn't think anyone was here." I mumbled walking back inside. "Jazmin wait, can we talk?" He said. Fuck. I hesitated to answer. I turned around and sighed. "Sure." I said quietly. I walk back outside and sat on a chair. Noah sat a few feet away from me facing me. I was focused on the snow falling from the sky. "Jazmin, I'm so sorry for everything. I should've never taken you to that party.  I drank too much. I didn't know what I was doing. I'm such a dumbass. I've been feeling like shit ever since. I haven't been sleeping. I fucked up big time and I get it if you don't want to get back together but just know that I will never stop loving you." He said.
I held on to the mug tightly ignoring the fact that it was burning my hands. I continued to stare at the snow trying to block tears from coming out. I looked at him and he was staring at me. His face was a little red from the cold. His eyes were red from crying. I felt a tear come down my cheek. "I-I don't know what to do Noah. I still need more time to think. I mean this all just happened last week. I'm still hurt." I shakily said. He nodded. "Take all the time you need." He said. I stared at the ground. He got up and walked to the door. "Can I get a hug?" He asked. I nodded slowly while setting my mug down. I walked over to him and gave him a hug. He squeezed me tightly. I laid my head against his chest hearing his heart beat. It was going pretty fast. I miss him but forgiving him now would be inappropriate. "I'm sorry." He whispered in my ear while letting go of the hug. He got his blanket and went back inside leaving me alone. I sighed and sat back down. I need more time. This is all going too fast. As I drank all my coffee I started to get cold so I went back inside. My makeup is probably ruined. I saw Anthony & Joe in the kitchen. Most likely everyone's awake. I smile at them and walk to my room. As I enter, Courtney was doing her makeup. "Hey where were you?" She asked. "Just woke up early so I decided to get ready." I shrugged. "Have you been crying." She asked. I shook my head. She looked at me suspiciously. I grabbed my makeup bag and sat on her bed. She looked at my face. "You were crying. Is it because of Noah?" She said worried. I nodded my head. "But this time it's different. He apologized Courtney. I don't know what to do so I said I need some time to think." I said shakily. Tears once again were forming in my eyes. "You did the right thing. You need to think this through." Courtney said giving me a hug. We continued doing our makeup. Once we were finished, we went downstairs with everyone else. I went to the kitchen and saw Joven making pancakes & Joe cooking bacon. "Ooooo we got the chefs in the house!" I said. "You know it!" Joven said turning around. I read his apron and it said
' Mr. Good lookin is cookin '
"I wouldn't agree on the apron though." Shayne jokingly said. Joven rolled his eyes and continued cooking. I grabbed a plate and served myself a pancake and some bacon. I sat on a stool next to Keith. He smiled and I smiled back. 20 minutes later everyone finished eating. "Alright guys it's time to film!" Matt Raub said. We cheered and stood in front of the chimney. All the cameras were set up. I stood between Sohinki & Keith. As everyone gathered around the camera crew started to count down. "SMOSH WINTER GAMES!" We yelled. As Ian & Anthony did the intro, I making weird faces to Keith. We laughed and paid attention.
"My team is team Snow Fleeks!" Anthony said. "Oh yeaaaah." I yelled. "My team is team blue balls!" Ian said. We cheered. Ian & Anthony started playing rock paper scissors or the Japanese version John Cam Bell. Ian won again. The first person he picked was lasercorn. "Iancorn for life!" I said.
So far the teams were:
blue balls:
Lasercorn, Shayne, Courtney
snow fleeks:
Mari, Sohinki, Wes
The rest of us were huddled together. I was hugging Olivia & Keith. "I'll pick Flitz!" Ian said. "Why is it always us?" Olivia said. The five of us which were Joven, Olivia, Noah, Keith & I were standing on top of the bench thingy. Anthony started doing eeny meeny miny mo. "Oh no." I said. "Eeny meenyyyy Jazmin!" He said pulling me. "Ayeeee!" I said jumping off and giving Anthony a hug. He spun me around. "Everyone just stare at her." Ian said as I changed into my shirt. I started to take off my sweatshirt and put on the shirt quickly. I went next to Wes. Anthony chose Keith and Olivia while Ian chose Noah and Joven. "Alright guys off to the first game!" Anthony said. "Ayee!" I yelled. "The first game we'll be playing is the T-Rex race which is outside so everyone change into something warm!" Sunny said. We all went to our rooms. As I entered the room I realized that I'm in a room with the opposite team. "Yo I barely realized I'm in a room with the opposite team. You guys better not something to me." I said to Shayne & Courtney. Shayne gave me a mischievous smirk. I squinted my eyes at him. Noah came in so I quickly looked away. Courtney and Shayne were already changed so they left. It was me & Noah alone once again. I faced the wall and started to change my shirt. I wore my team shirt on top off my sweatshirt. I got my phone & my winter jacket and left the room. Everyone was outside already minus Joven who was barely walking outside. "Jovie wait!" I said as I jogged up to him. "Is that my new nickname?" He asked. I grinned and nodded. Joven is like my big brother. He's always there for me. We laughed and continued walking. "How are you and Noah?" He asked. I shrug. "Normal i guess. He apologized this morning." I said. "He did? What did you say. Did you forgive him?" He asked. "Does it look like I forgave him? I told him I needed more time to think that this is going too fast for me." I said. "You did the right thing." He said giving me a side hug. I nodded and pat his belly.
We made it to the rest of the crew. "Everyone set to do the intro!" Matt said. We all gathered around each other. Flitz started to do the intro. I stood next to Keith. As Flitz was talking, he accidentally pimp slapped Courtney. I laughed.
As he finished talking, we cheered. "Okay so the first people who are running is Keith & Courtney!" Joe said. "You got this Keith!" I said while helping him into the suit. "You got a booty!" Mari said. "Shake that ass!" I yelled. He started dancing. "Okay guys get ready!" Sunny said. As Joe counted down, they started running. "Go Keith!" I yelled. He sprinted leaving Courtney behind. "Holy shit he's fast!" I said. "Winner snow fleeks!" Sunny announced. We cheered.
Next up was Mari and Lasercorn. As they ran Lasercorn started car fighting with Mari. "Come on Mari!" Wes yelled. Lasercorn won. As more people ran, it was pretty close to who won. "It was a really close race! It was intense! Snow fleeks come in with 1:21. Blue balls come in with 1:22. Snow fleeks win!" Sunny said. "Ohhh yeah!!" I yelled. We cheered. "That's a wrap on the first game guys!" Wes said. I checked the time and it was already 12 pm. We helped clean up. Once we were done, we went back inside. "We'll be sledding if you guys want to join." Joven said. "Ooh I'll go!" I said. "I'll go later." Olivia said. I followed Joven outside. "Oh shit the snow is deep." I said. Joven turned on the camera and started vlogging. Soon enough Wes, Lasercorn & Noah joined us. "Joven go on the sled I'll give you a push." Wes said. Joven got on the sled and got pushed from Wes. "There he goes!" I said. "Lasercorn, try standing up on the sled while going down." Noah said. "That sounds like a good idea." Lasercorn said. I shook my head. He stood up and started going down. He immediately fell on his ass. I laughed. "That didn't go as well as I hoped." He said. "There was nothing about that was a good idea." Matt said. "I wanna make a snow man." I said. "What are you. 5 years old?" Matt said. I nodded and went down the hill. I made a snowman so the guys can try to know it down. Lasercorn tried to punch it but it didn't go down. "Is that snowman made of concrete?" He yelled. I laughed. I went to the snowman. "I did a good job on this baby." I said patting the snowman. "Yup this is going no where." Matt said. "Watch out!" Lasercorn said. I looked and Noah was coming in head first into the snowman. His head collided with the snowman causing it to knock over. I covered my mouth and started laughing. "My snowman!" I laughed. I got a sled and ran on top of the hill. "Flitz give me a push!" I said. He gave me a pushed and I was going down the hill. "Oh shit." I yelled. I made it down the hill successfully. Courtney and Olivia came out. Olivia went down the hill screaming. "Oh my god." I said walking up the hill. "Human sleddapede!" Lasercorn said. I got behind him while Sohinki was in front. I was a train. As we went down I got off the sled. "Ow my butt." I said. "Courtney Olivia lets go all together!" I said. I grabbed a sled. Courtney was in front Olivia was in the middle and I was in the back. "Someone push us!" Olivia said. Wes got behind me and pushed us. We screamed. Half way down I got knocked off the sled. I laid on the snow. "I'm good!" I said while giving a thumbs up. The girls and I continued sledding until we were tired. "I'm pooped." Olivia said. We left the boys and went inside. "I made hot chocolate if you girls want some." Sarah said. We nodded and went to the kitchen. I grabbed a mug and poured hot chocolate. I went to the couch and sat with the girls. "How come you weren't outside with us?" I asked Mari. "I was taking a nap. I barely woke up now." She said. "What were you doing last night?" Olivia asked. "Probably busy with Wes." I said. Mari flipped me off. We all laughed.
Everyone slowly started coming back inside. "Tonight we'll film put it in my mouth & seriously super stupid sleepover." Joe announced. "Lets play quiplash." Shayne said. "I bet I can beat all of you." I said. "Pshh yeah right." Shayne said. "She's actually pretty good." Mari said. I smirked at Shayne. As everyone put in the code, I sat on the couch.
*3 intense rounds later*
"WOOOOO I WON 3 ROUNDS." I yelled. "You joined the illuminate didn't you!" Shayne yelled. "Maybe." I said.
We spent the next hours playing games until people had to film. "I still can't believe you won three rounds straight." Shayne said. "What can I say? I'm a beast." I said walking to the kitchen with everyone else. I looked at the window and it was dark. Damn we've been playing until dark. All the cameras were set up prepared to film pinmm. The theme was Valentine's Day which also is his birthday. Everyone gathered around the kitchen. Noah did his intro. "Food girl bring out the food!" He said. Courtney came in with a tray. "I guess it's time for the reveal." Noah said. He pulled the rag and there was a huge piece of meat. "Woah! Now that's some meat." Joven said. Noah held it. One half was open. "It's a vagina!" Joven said. "Oh my god." I said face palming myself. Shayne laughed. Noah then read some facts about hearts. "A woman's heart beats faster than a mans heart. Heyyy cause they're always lying!" He said. My eyes widened and my jaw dropped to the floor. Holy shit. "OOOOOHHHH!" All the guys yelled. I looked over at Shayne with my mouth still opened. He covered his mouth laughing. I looked at Noah which he looked at me but quickly looked away. Joven closed my mouth. "No wonder you're single again." Joe said. My mouth opened again but I covered it. "Oh my god." Shayne said with his hands on his cheeks. Noah laughed softly but looked at the ground. I was still covering my mouth. "Joe bereta is SAVAGE." Flitz said. "Well this just got awkward." Joven said rubbing my shoulder. "Moving on." Courtney said. "Um okay lets just dig in." He said grabbing the raw meat. Before he took a bite, everyone stopped him. Courtney came out with a plate of cooked meat. "I would've let him taken a bite out of it." I whispered into Shaynes ear. He laughed and shook his head. I shrugged. He took a bite and he liked it. Everyone else went to try it minus me, Courtney, & Lasercorn. "Hey Jazmin you wanna try some?" Joven asked. "Nah im good I don't eat with snakes." I said. "OOOOOOHHHH!" Keith yelled while dropping his fork. Everyone else oooed loudly. Noah stayed silent. "This episode is something else." Joe said while laughing. Noah did the outro and ended the show. "That's my girl." Keith said while giving me a high five. I laughed. "Okay time to film SSSS!" Sunny said. "Jazmin I'm not letting you beat me at quiplash. Round 4?" Shayne asked. "If you say so loser." I said skipping towards the couch. Everyone was there except Wes, Flitz, Courtney, & Olivia. "Lets do this shit." I said putting in the code.
*another 2 rounds later*
"HOW DO YOU KEEP WINNING?" Anthony yelled. "I got that magic touch." I said. "I'm telling you she's  in the illuminate." Shayne said.  "I knew it from the start!" Lasercorn said. "She's won 5 rounds!" Ian said. "You're all just haters." I said. I laughed and checked my phone. It was already 12:30 am. "Guys I going to sleep now ill see you in the morning." Mari yawned. Everyone agreed to go to bed. I got to the room and changed into my pajamas. I brushed my teeth and climbed up my bunk bed. Everyone else started to do the same. I went on twitter and tweeted:
' today was something else '
"Goodnight butts." Courtney said. "Night." I said while turning off my phone. I soon fell into deep sleep something I haven't done in a while.