The Space In Between

Was it a joke?

So some of you might not have enjoyed the last chapter. I know, I know I didn't enjoy writing it either. But sometimes things like that happen to people and you won't always get your happy ending. Last year I lost two people I cared about very much. I lost my best friend and my boyfriend. My boyfriend was a wonderful guy but he lies. Yes it's true everyone lies but the way he lies hurt like you wouldn't imagine. When he looked me in the eyes and told me that he didn't want a girlfriend for a while (meaning like a year or so & it wasn't a year when he got his girlfriend.) he then got a girlfriend or started talking to this girl not even a month later. I still see him a lot and it breaks my heart honestly. He's an attractive guy and kind and funny but he just isn't very trustworthy. To tell you the truth he's a player. I did (or do idrk🤷‍♀️) love him. He was the world to me but loosing him broke me into a million pieces. What was worse is that my best friend had a crush on him after we had just broken up. Over the few weeks she liked him I didn't speak to her much and I knew that it was the beginning of the end.

Over a couple of months we grew distant, she became a bitch and I became lost & alone. I grew close to some other girls and became their friends but my ex BFF is still crazy and unstable and doesn't know what hurts to say. She always told me that I brought her self esteem down and made her sad but little does she know every time a word comes out of her mouth it's hurtful. I don't think she realizes half the stuff she says but it hurts and it's sad to watch somebody who used to be so close to me become someone I hoped she would never be.

Anyway I'm getting off topic. So basically what I'm trying to say is that I didn't want to have a fairytale story where Lucy and Cameron get their happy ending. I wanted a sick, twisted sort of fairytale, kind of like the world we live in. I might change it up a bit and not make it such a gruesome ending. So please comment what you think and if you are ever feeling down or depressed please DM me I am willing to sit and talk for as long as you would like.

Thx so much!

❤Swim4eva11