A story in which a boy strives to give a girl everything she wants, but for what price?
***WARNING: Story contains, violence, drug/alcohol abuse, sexual scenes and strong language***
Remember when you read this chapter that the play Austin wrote was based on his relationship with Parker basically word for word, up until the what happens after they stop talking, it'll help :)
Lmao, so we're gonna have a book 2 :)
21. What Is He Doing?
Tonight was the night of the play, I'm nervous as fuck, and I'm really not looking forward to it. To avoid a hungover Austin, I told Alex to keep him on lock down so that he can't leave. I'm already dressed and ready to go, waiting for this scene to end, while also trying to keep from crying.
"Ready?" Austin asks me, and I shake my head.
"But I have to be, right?"
"Yeah I guess so" He nods, placing his hand on my shoulder. I tense slightly, and sigh, biting my lip. Our professor urges us to go out on stage and I walk out first, meeting with the people who are supposed to be my brothers.
The scene plays out exactly like it did on the first day of school. Austin comes out, surprising me just like he had done back in August.
My lip quivers slightly, but I dig my teeth into it, hiding it. There becomes a time when I just begin to go through the motions of the play, that is until something changed.
We had just gotten to the point, where Austin and I had a fight. He walks over to my makeshift dorm room, knocking on the door. I'm not sure of what to do, so instead I just sit there.
"Babe, please, open the door" He says, and I can hear him rest his forehead against the door, and I still am unsure of what to do. This part wasn't in my script "I know I messed up, and there isn't a day that goes by that I don't wish that I didn't. You're everything to me, and I threw that all away. But I did it because I was scared-"
"What is he doing?" I hear my professor yell, and I begin to breathe heavily knowing that this wasn't in the script. He's making this up.
"I was scared of my feelings for you. I've felt so deeply for you so long, and it got to a point where all I thought about was you and I didn't think I had any other choice but to fight it. I wish that you could see how sorry I am, but I know that I've never been able to show my remorse. I love you, P. I love you so much and I'm so sorry" He says, and the tears begin to flow freely. Those in the audience think this is all planned, but little do they know I'm actually a shitty actress and this is real life.
"Please forgive me. You don't have to want me anymore, but I'm begging you to forgive me"
I can hear him slowly back away from the door, and soon the lights on the stage turn off, everyone erupting in cheers. I sit still in shock, my tears still falling. Everyone stands to clap and soon the curtain closes and I wipe my tears before leaving the makeshift dorm room and walking to wipe my face.
"Parker" I hear Austin say behind me, and I turn around angrily.
"You're a fucking liar! You tell me you love me? Fuck you!" I jab my finger into his chest "You don't love me, you never did-"
"Yes I do" He grabs my wrist.
"No you don't, stop lying to me" I scream.
"Parker, stop" He says quietly "Listen to me, I'm sorry for everything I've done to you, and I know I don't deserve your forgiveness-"
"Hell no you d-"
"Parks, please listen to me" He sighs "But I'm so sorry and I love you so much and I miss you, and being with you. I'm so deeply in love with you"
"Austin" I sob, and he wraps his arms around me, and as much as I fight to get him off of me he doesn't let go.
"I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry" He whispers, rubbing my back lightly.
"I hate you, I hate you, I hate you" I cry.
"I know you do" He nods "And I don't blame you"
"I'm leaving. I need to go" I pull myself away from him, running away. As I leave the theatre I run to my dorm, packing up all my things.
"Parker please"
"Stop following me" I tell him.
"Are you leaving?"
"Yes" I zip up my suitcase.
"I'm sorry"
"You've already said that" I roll my eyes.
"I know" He says, walking up to me.
"Don't touch me" I warn him.
"I'm going to anyways" He shrugs, and he cups my face, slowly leaning in. His lips press against mine, and I forget how to function for a moment.
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The kiss ends all too quickly, and he's stepping away from me "Goodbye Parker" He says, backing out of my room.
I stare at the door after he leaves, one question flooding through my mind.
