Her Perfect Family

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Krystella

Mum didn't come looking for me... I guess she knows I have a few traits like her... I need to be left alone in my thoughts. I know she can't expect me to promise her I won't kill myself if she dies in front of me... I could never live with that. If she does then my finger will be crossed I don't care if she ties me up and throws me in the shed too. I'm not promising that I'll be living without her. I just can't do it... she needs to understand that. It's MY choice... once she's gone she can't tell me what I can and can't do.

Knock knock.

I didn't say anything...

"Stella?"
"Mmmm?" I rose and made the noise and lay down again.

She walked in..and sat at the end of my bed.

"Krystella.....I've been thinking." She started saying.. this was never a good thing in the past.

"Did it hurt?" I said softly but sarcastically and got a pillow thrown at my face.

"Shush smart ass." She smirked and continued.

"No I've seriously been thinking the last two hours you've been up here."

"I've been up here two hours??" I sat up a little and rubbed my eyes.

"Yes, will you shut up for a minute." She sort of snapped.

"Sorry..." I said weakly.

I could see she was getting annoyed at me so I just stopped and listened.

"I don't expect you to promise okay?!" She said loudly. And her face dropped to her hands and she burst into tears.

Ugh now what have I done.... I hate seeing her cry.

"Mum." I said touching her arm to get her to look at me. She didn't she pushed me away and got up and walked out..

That scared me a bit I didn't like seeing her like that. She's never pushed me away before.... I had to fix this...I needed her..

I went down stairs but she wasn't there.. worried she was going to do something stupid I got the gloves and put them on. The voice changer was gone and so were her gloves.. phew...

I went outside and saw the shed open, I ran up to it and she was punching the man in the face and crying silently. I watched as she kept going until he went limp. She got up and walked out, gesturing for me to follow her. She got my to lock up because she had blood on her gloves, so I did. And we both went back to the house.

She went to the outside tap and washed the gloves off and made sure it all went down the drain... turned the tap off and went inside.

"Mum?" I said quietly.. thinking she was still angry at me.

"I'm not angry at you Stella. For once in my life...I'm scared...Scared that something will go wrong and my baby will shoot herself...I've never wanted to know or think about my babies ever hurting themselves you're supposed to be happy... and because of me... and my taste for revenge and justice....you....you...."

"Mum breathe it's okay. If you weren't here and god forbid something happened to you in jail... I'd probably be up there with both of you anyway. Please please I need you to understand...you are the only reason I'm alive...so if it's your time to go IF we even get caught.... Then I'm okay with the fact that it's mine. Okay? I know that sounds fucked up..but it's true. I love you." I kissed her on the cheek.

She sighed. "I guess so... I didn't want this life for you Stella."

"I know you didn't.... but I guess I'm a lot more you than we both thought huh?" She sighed again...and nodded.

"I guess so...out of three daughters I'm glad it's just one that's psycho." She tried to laugh..

I just smiled at her and kissed her again. "You need a cup of tea, go sit down" I said as I pushed her towards the couch.

"Thanks baby." She smiled weakly.

I blew her a kiss and went to make it.