Regis (Parts I & II)

Chapter 4 (Part 2)- Rune

                    Once again, another realization slaps me in the face. Like a bucket of cold, ice water thrown on me, I'm awake and alert. But I wish I wasn't. It would be so much easier if I didn't wake up because I would face the terrible reality that is my life.

How could I forget such a big thing? How could I not remember that I was the pack's next Alpha. Alpha. I am supposed to take over my deceased father's Alpha position.

                        But I'm not fit to be an Alpha. What do I know about having power, let alone leading a pack? I'm not one to be at the front of the stage, but rather a shadow in the back. An observer if you would call me that. I can't climb in front of everyone to make huge announcements, nor can I willingly lay down my life and be devoted to others. I'm my own person, never being tied down. Of course if the time and place was exact, I would lay down my life for a child, but for an entire pack? Does that make me selfish? I just want to be my own, keep to myself. I can't become alpha.

                              I may be selfish but I'm not blind enough to see the pack needs. My father was a great person, someone who held so much power but directed it purely out of love from his heart. I can't do that. They need someone who is responsible, caring, selfless. I'm none of those things. They will be expecting someone will the same such qualities my father held. Someone who has a heart full of compassion, and selflessness.

                             Besides, I have my own mission brewing. I don't have time to be held down by a pack or submerge myself in stacks of pack related issues and wants. The mission I'm about to take is going to be a long one with all the focus I can give. I won't be able to take care of a pack while I'm trekking through the woods searching for a blood sucker.

                         I gasp back and look up at Lee who is holding my hands in his. His hands emit a warmth, comforting me slightly. It makes the situation so much more real, reminding me that I'm not dreaming.

   "I can't be the Alpha." I mutter staring into his soft blue eyes.

                 His face quickly morphs into one of confusion, "What do you mean you can't be the Alpha?"

                           A tiny, aching pain begins in my temple. Stupid headaches.

                       I laugh lightly, "Why SHOULD I be the Alpha is the real question."

                                      Let's weigh out the Pro's and Con's. Pro's: I am the Alphas blood heir and should be able to lead a pack by now. Con's: I know nothing about running a pack, I don't walk with an authoritative bone in my body, I wouldn't risk my life for people I don't really know, and I don't have a mate. I don't like talking about my future mate but If I am to become Alpha it's a topic I won't be able to hide from forever. Everyone knows that when you are an Alpha, you work better alongside your mate. Although dad did manage it for several years, there's just parts of his life I saw missing. He never even began looking for another mate. What if I can't find my mate soon?

I quickly shake my head at that thought. 

"Because you are his daughter and it is your rightful duty as his heir." His answer is as obvious as any.

                                           I rub my temple saying, "You don't understand."

                     He's obviously getting frustrated and so am I. I feel my anger levels rising faster than farts in the hot summer air. What is he understanding? I'm not fit for an Alpha and anyone can see that.

                    He pushes closer to the desk, eyes blazing, "Okay, tell me what I'm not understanding? Is this just you closing off from the world again, well don't even try. You can't mope for the rest of your life."

                   Like another slap to the face, a dull ache rips across my chest. Is that what I'm doing? Closing off from everyone? I don't mean to. I want to be open with someone but I don't think that's exactly what I need right now. I gulp, "I don't know how to lead a pack, Lee. Don't give me an attitude now. I don't need this right now. I'm hurting too and this is all going too fast."

                     "You act like you are the only one hurting, Rune. Trust me we all are and that's exactly why we-all those innocent men, women, children, need you." He finger points out of the bay window.

"No, they need someone who will lead them strongly. Someone fearless and ready to defend them at any point."

"-but Rune, that's-"

                  So, as I bring my eyes right back to his a stare deeply, I lay down what I want, "That's why I want you to take it. Be the Alpha Lee. I know you can do it."

                  His mouth slacks open, looking dumbfounded. His eyes search mine for clues, he thinks I'm joking. I'm as serious as I've ever been. I continue, "For years, I've watched you everyday by my father's side. You know so much about what it takes to be an Alpha and run a pack than me. I was never made to be Alpha."

 I tell him this and I'm okay with that. I am doing the right thing.

      "R-Rune? Are you sure?" He asks, "This is a big-"

"I'm so sure, I would cut my left arm off to solidify this."

                      He looks so shocked and he surprises me by quickly jumping out of his chair, rounding the desk and pulling me into his arms. My face is squished against his chest and I in breathe deeply. He holds onto me for a few seconds, kissing my hair. "I will do everything in my power to be the best Alpha I can be."

I wrap my arms around his sides, whispering."I know you will, lee lee."

            He holds me for a few minutes, not saying a word. I can only imagine what is going through his head. He must be feeling shocked and surprised, but I hope he is mostly happy about my decision. My eyes close and I lean more into him.

"What will you do if your not Alpha?"

Despite the tender, emotional moment, I smile. A full blown grin. "I want to find dad's killer. It'll be my own mission."

I don't miss the way his eyes don't hold any surprise and the way humor floats into his deep blues, "What? You plan on searching for your father, how?"

                I shrug because I don't know. Maybe I can go to other packs and ask if they have had any recent infiltration's, or maybe I can track them. Tracking would be the least efficient way and I am not a decent tracker by any means. There might be someone in the pack who could help possibly, but I doubt our forces are strong enough to find a vampire who we have little to no knowledge on.

His twist for a second, thinking. "Okay, don't get your hopes up but I know the Alpha of the Regis pack and I know he has some wolves that might help."

I nod, "I was thinking about a tracker or someone that could track the vampire."

"Don't worry, will look into it."

I couldn't help but bounce out of my seat again, wrapping my arms around him. "Thank you!"

"Yeah, yeah." He sighed, feigning defeat

This chapter was longer than the last one, and I truly hope you enjoyed it. I loved writing this chapter because it was the first chapter I've written in a while where I am able to keep a conversation between characters going. If you did like this chapter please vote, and leave a comment. I didn't get any votes last chapter so it would mean the world if you could this one.