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jongdae | nat

4th October 2017, 10:34

hi, it's me
jongdae

my mom...
she killed herself
I was 14
in hindsight she probably
was depressed too
but she never said anything
out of fright that it might
break the family apart...
dad was very brave
but it hurt him badly
i'm so glad I always had my brother
Charlie...
he was hurting too but he took
the best of care of me
without him I might not
be the person I am today

I am deeply and truly sorry
Natalia...

it's okay jongdae
years have passed
wounds have healed
I'm just saying
please don't do anything stupid
I wouldn't want to lose you too

oh, natalia, please
please, do not worry
don't let your heart fill up
with a proper fuck-up like me

I'm sorry for changing the subject
but your English is so good now
you talk like a native speaker

as I said, I'm a fast learner
but you wouldn't want to hear
my pronunciation

I bet it sounds real charming

Korean accent??

yeah
:)

no...
I can assure you that

how come you learn so fast?

I have nothing better to do
and I learned mandarin in
six months
nothing can hold me back
also this time, my incentive
is a lot greater

oh yeah?

talking to you is the only
thing I look forward to
when I wake up in the morning
so you bet

I really like taking to you too
and I kind of want to hear your voice
would you like to FaceTime with me?

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