Birthmarks

Birthmarks Part 5

When I look back at this moment I wonder why I even gave into Michael's stupid bet, or why I kissed him so violently. But all I can say was in that moment, I was angry. Angry at him for winning and angry at how today had turned out. I was even angry at Marina for messaging him. I needed something to take this frustration out on, and I knew it wasn't rational or fair to use him. But he had used so many girls, so what difference would it make if I used him?

But I wasn't expecting him to be angry too.

He kissed me back with an urgency that I could not comprehend. He cupped my face and reached into my hair whilst leaning forward to take control. I hugged his waist as we kissed and felt his smooth skin as his shirt rose. God he smelt so damn good!

I could feel my heart pounding, how the hell could Michael make me feel this good?

Then I realised, MICHAEL WAS KISSING ME BACK.

No.
I would not do this to myself again.

I pushed him away mid-kiss, embarrassed at myself for even going down this road.

"There's your damn kiss!" I shouted as I grabbed my things and ran out the door.

*SLAM*

Michael

I stared at the door where Natasha walked out on me.

What. The. Fuck?!

When she kissed me it felt like I had never been with any other girl. I know it sounds cliché as fuck but I felt this sense of guilt for not waiting for her because it felt so right.

But now? Now I feel empty and lost.

I had never been so brutally dismissed like that before, and this lack of control made me realise that I had been played for a fool.

Is this what it felt like to be on the other side?

Guilt and anger swirled inside me. Why did she do that?

Fuck! I punched a pillow.

Did it help? No.

All I wanted to do was shake some fucking sense into her. You just don't do shit like that to feel better.

But then I heard a noise.

Johnny!

I ran to his room and saw him crying. And instantly everything that had happened vanished.

"Mummy," he yelled tears streaming down his face. I comforted him by rubbing his back and made him a promise.

He would always come first.

That means no more messing around with anyone, no more hotel rooms, and no more of this bullshit.

Once I graduate, I'm taking Johnny with me and we will run for the hills together.

Natasha

I ran and ran for what felt like hours. There wasn't anything odd about this night other than the fact that I HAD KISSED MICHAEL.

Fuck!

I should not have done that. I should not have done that. I should not have done that.

I've ruined everything, as per usual. The one chance to redeem my Maths grade and maybe, just maybe find a new friend had been destroyed, along with my sense of judgement.

I could feel wetness on my face from the rain and I looked up, no it was just cloudy. I don't even know why I was crying, he didn't mean anything. He was just helping me with my work, and that's what it will stay as.