Renee replied within minutes, we had a little bit of small talk, and I decided to jump right in, I said, I miss us, what we had. She said she misses it too, but she doesn't know whether she wants us to be back together again. I told her to take her time with it, and she was okay with it. I asked her what made her come to the realization, and she told me that once she heard me and Tracy are "together" she realized what she lost, and wanted it back. I was quite flattered, but now came another problem, breaking the news to Tracy, that I am aiming for someone else. As I was thinking about what to do with Tracy, I realized I've been leading on Tandy for the longest time. I had to break the news to her as well, and for her I decided to just be honest, tell her, "I'm falling for my ex." She took it well I thought, she wasn't like other girls, she didn't want to let go of the relationship completely, she still texted me, but now with no flirting, however, she kept guilting me about falling for my ex, I tried to tell that I don't choose these things, but It just didn't work out. I guess she was right to guilt me, after flirting and leading her on for so long, only to tell her at the end that I am falling for my ex, it must have hurt. However, I didn't realize this until much later.
Anyway, one day, I was talking to Tandy, she mentioned how bad it was that I fell for my ex, and I lost it, I lost my composure and blew a fuse, I blocked her on everything that I could, made sure she was out of my life and wouldn't try and get back in. It was all history, or so I thought. The next day I head to school and my best friend, Ben (we've been friends since we were 2), he asks me about her. I was shocked, I couldn't believe she had found a way to crawl back into my life. Ben had a few things to tell me that she had told him, Ben opened my eyes to see what I'd done wrong, opened my eyes to how everything I'd done must've hurt her. It all just hit me, I got home, and the first thing I did was send her a message on every platform I could apologizing from the white of my bone. She took it well, accepted my apology, and from there I thought we were on good terms, "thought". More on that later..
So about this time, after all the drama with Tandy, it had been about a week. The first time me and Renee had spoken after the break-up, the next day after that, I walked up to her in the morning to give her a hug, like I used to when we were together, and she almost rejected it, I thought she was completely uninterested, so I decided to just lay off her. Anyway, a week later, after all the Tandy drama, Renee sent me a text saying, I want to get back together. I saw the text and I was filled with happiness, it seemed everything was just working out. I was officially back together with Renee and life was just going great.
The first trip came up, we went on our merry way, we got to our camp after an hour of hiking, and we stayed put at the camp until the next morning. As the boys, we played some soccer and just loosened up after hiking for so long. Halfway through the game I headed to the tents to spend time with a few other people. I stayed with my friend and his girlfriend until the sunset, when I finally decided to head on over to Renee's tent. That's when the fun began. First I had to think of a reason to be in her tent, and then I had to think of a reason to stay, I came up with both, but I can't remember either, I walked up to her tent, said something, got in, and then sat in it with her. It was me, her, and her friends. I sat at one end, and she sat at the other end, we sat like that for about an hour, until finally I moved on up to be near her, we cuddled for a bit, until her friends got the signal and left us to it, we made out quite a bit until we were interrupted. What had happened was the popular girls in our class had carried alcohol on the trip, and they were drunk, very drunk. As a result of them being drunk, some of the teachers started to notice what was happening and were on high alert. With this being done the girls that were drunk were being divided and put in separate tents across the camp, and we got the privilege of being with one of my ex's, Imani.
Basically Imani and I had a thing during the time of my mums funeral, but we didn't work out because well we had different ideas of what a relationship should be. So this led to our break up. So in our tent, Renee and I continued making out until Imani started screaming, "Don't have sex." After this Renee's guard was up, its as if she was realizing exactly what she was doing. Soon after she got up and went to get dinner, leaving me and Imani in the tent alone. She was drunk, so she was bound to say a bunch of silly things. I wasn't prepared for most, but anyway, she was constantly in between tears and spewing out emotional things, most of which didn't make sense, except for one, she started talking about us, she started saying things I'd never heard her say, she went on about how she was scared, how being her first put her under a lot of pressure and made her scared of messing up. I was so shocked, by this time, I was holding her hand because she had asked me to hold it while she was crying. She was about to say something, "I really think that...." and then she got up, stuck her head out the door and puked. Puked everything she had drank out onto the dirt, and a bit of my shoe. I could
After that, my night was over, I headed straight back to my tent once Renee came back, and blacked out. The next day was pretty text book, walked a bunch and headed back home. Same as always, nothing specifically special. I went home, the relationship continued as normal, we went on the next trip which was three days after we came back, and we were psyched to just relax. The first night was normal, spent it in my room with my mates, nothing special, the second night, I was planning on sleeping in Renee's room. I got to her room, we cuddled for a few hours until finally it was supposed to be lights out, I went around and made sure everyone was quite and no one got caught by the teachers. It went well, I managed to spend the night in her room, cuddling. It was nice. The next night came around, and it was much more complicated, suddenly I was being told about Tracy having feelings for me and her being very confused about whats happening, because one minute were flirting and its all good and the next minute I have a girlfriend. I decided to just take whats coming, and face it like a man, I sat down with Tracy in my room, and explained what was happening and apologized. She seemed like she was okay with it, she accepted my apology, we talked about it for a bit, and then we set off in our separate directions. I went to Renee, we spent the next night together, somewhat caught in between because some guys were making way too much noise. I still managed to spend the night in her room, we left the next morning back home, bright and early. I didn't realize at the time, but leaving her bed that morning was me saying goodbye to "grace period" in the relationship.
