Morgan and Whitney were holding each other, at first I was upset, I wanted to beat his face into paste, but then I realized, I'd never actually said I care about Whitney. This didn't ruin my run though, I asked Morgan if he felt anything for her and he said he didn't, so I jumped into it and told Whitney how I feel. To my delight she felt the same way. It was all going great, I'd walk her home from school, sit with her during Lunch. It was just great.
It was all working out, perfectly if I may, and then it all got ruined, constantly people started telling me that Whitney had a thing with Morgan as well, at this point I wasn't officially dating Whitney, so not many people knew we were a thing. Usually I would have just have asked Morgan straight up, and sort it out as bro's. But a few weeks earlier me and Morgan had a fight, I broke his trust, and it just ended badly. We weren't on talking terms, at all. This led me to believe that they might actually be telling the truth about Morgan, he may be doing it just to get at me, so it became a competition, who could win the girl. I thought I was winning. It looked like she was falling head over heals for me. In school we have occasional days were we can choose to not wear uniform, I go to a British Curriculum School, so uniform was something we all endure on a day to day basis. This being said, everyone would jump on the opportunity to take off the uniform and wear what they want. I did my best to look my best, and headed to school that morning. On a different note, it was around this time that Mabel dropped out of school. She refused to tell me why, but never the less, we kept in touch. Anyway, I got to class, and walked up to Whitney to giver her a hug and say hey, she was wearing a skin tight red dress, she looked stunning in it. That specific day we were able to skip class to go and have fun as a grade, eat food, listen to music and just hang out. We were out in the court, I start looking for Whitney, with the idea of jumping on the opportunity and hanging out. I saw her with Morgan, holding hands. It almost looked like a scene from a killer romance movie. That's when I realized Morgan had it won. That day I ended it with Whitney, and told her to just go for Morgan, someone who actually wanted to commit to her, I still hadn't asked her to be my girlfriend yet. It didn't take long for her to get the message, because the next day the word was being passed around that her and Morgan were together. It hurt, but I got over it. Being boy's, it didn't take me and Morgan a lifetime to forgive and forget about the argument we had. We were back to being bro's. At that point, it was the first time I proudly used the term, "Bro's before Hoe's".
All the Whitney drama was passed me, and Morgan would tell me about all the time's they'd make out, and just be happy together. Overtime, I stopped caring about it as much, and it was to the point it would just brush passed me as if she was just another girl. So I was out being single, until this girl, Danielle, texted me. She wanted to send her condolences about my mums passing. A few days before that, it was my mum's birthday, so I made a few posts on Facebook about how much I miss her and how much she meant to me. Danielle was great. Like Nicole I was the head of the relationship, the guy in the relationship as most people would say. Danielle and I would talk a lot, until she told me she had feelings for me, everything changed, from being Danielle, she became my everything. Like Nicole, we would talk everyday after school. It was going great.
I had an old friend, Renee, Renee was an interesting girl, we had nothing in common but we used to talk. Over the summer we stopped talking, and she took it personally. Anyway, she came to school one day crying, I went up to her to find out whats up, she told her me her dog died, and then gave me a lecture about how I forgot about her existence. I told her I'd change, we'd be close again, and I tried. But we just lacked the same spark. Anyway, things continued with me and Renee. It was going great. Although, she was higher on the chain of popularity among teenagers, so more people knew about her. One day, she was doing some Q&A thing on Facebook, and she was asked who the lucky guy is, and without hesitation she said my name, and said how much she loves me. It felt great at first, until I realized that if we ended on bad terms, a lot of people would hear about it and I'd get a really bad name, and probably no girl would ever want me. Sounds irrational now, but I genuinely was scared. So in my mind I started to contemplate the many ways it could end, and any of the ending caused by me would be terrible, and I wouldn't have a rational reason, in my mind at least.
In school I had a free period, I was finishing up on some work until one of my friends came up to me and told me, "DO YOU KNOW HOW LUCKY YOU ARE!" At first I had no idea what he was on about, so I asked him, he told me that he overheard Renee talking to her best friend, Autumn. Autumn and I had an interesting relationship, we'd be friends, and then have a big fight, one of us would apologize and it would all go back to normal, and the cycle would restart. Anyway, he overheard Renee tell Autumn that she had a crush on me. I was shocked, never in a million years had I imagined me and Renee. We're direct opposites, we had nothing in common at all. So I started thinking about it, maybe a change from a girl who's exactly like me would be a good idea. I gave the idea a shot, told Danielle that I needed space, and we had to break up. She insisted we stay friends, and I was more than happy. So I texted Renee, I asked her if she had particular emotional feelings for anyone, she said not exactly, but had a list of people she wouldn't mind "insert semi-sexual act here". That's literally what she said. So I asked to hear the list, she said no, I told her I'd tell her mine, and she said yes, she guessed a few names, she had gotten 4 names, but couldn't figure the fifth, I told her it was her, and she was honestly the only girl on the list I could doing anything with. She told me I was one of her five. I more or less expected it, so I asked what now? She said maybe we could try Friends with Benefits, and see how it works out. So we gave it a try. At this point Morgan was still with Whitney, doing as good as ever. Autumn had asked me if we could go on a sort of double date, she had a crush on this guy, Ethan. Most girls had a crush on Ethan at one point, he was a great guy, he had his priorities right and treated girls the right way. What I aspired to be. I agreed to the idea, Autumn told Renee all about the idea, and apparently she was excited to spend time with me outside school. I made it for the movie, and we made out. Seems routine now. However, with her it felt different, she was the worst kisser ever. She bit me and I was bleeding. It was the worst, but for some reason, it was working for me. I wanted her more. So slowly by slowly we started to get more serious, the list of five reduced to a list of one. We were working out great. Exam week rolled around, now in my school, we have a week specifically allocated for doing the terms finals, which meant no lessons and constant studying. During this time I had a lot to think about, what I really wanted, and the things holding me back. A few days before exam week, Morgan and Whitney had broken up. Morgan described the reason for the break up as "coming to his senses". So during exam week, a lot of secrets that she was holding to keep her and Morgan running came out, and one of them was that she had a thing with the both of us at the same time, and was playing us both. I lost my mind, and after not talking to her for months, I sat her down and asked her to explain everything, she told me that she did it for the attention. I lost my mind, and just left. Before long the news of our encounter had spread, and everyone was asking me for the details. After talking to her, I felt like I'd finally let go, she and I were finally through. On the last day of exam week, I asked Renee to be my girlfriend, I told her "Renee, I really like you, and I feel like what we have right now is just nothing, I want something, I want you to be mine, and me to be yours. Will you be my girlfriend?" She said yes. I gave her a hug, and bounced away to my friends, and they all cheered, I was happy, it was great, I thought that I finally found what I wanted. The girl I wanted.
