You Are My Everything

VI. Windflower

The race or the conflict begins now. I close my eyes as I hear the sound of people clapping their hands to the student who is singing 'Rose' and I know this girl who is in the same year with me but different school. She is Lee Hi. Known as the Master Rookie. I heard from the others that she won every contest that she's participating in. I feel uneasy to join this contest at the first place. This doesn't mean my voice is not good enough, but all of the participants are really good. I think I'm not that good for this contest. 

As soon as the song end, I look over the curtain and saw tons of people like this is a concert. Palms are starting to sweat. I'm so nervous. This is my first time in a big stage like this. 

Uneasy.

I took a deep breath and drink a water that I'm holding since the time I came here with my mom. While I'm here feeling timid to show people how good my voice is, mom is waiting for me in the sits that provided by the sponsors of this contest. I remember what mom just said to me earlier before we lived the house.

"If you lose this contest Ji eun-ah, I will no longer avow you from this music career or whatever. This is not the field I want you to be in." 

Remembering her words, I feel the pressure starts to come again. Sweat starts to drop from my forehead. I quickly wipe it off as I don't want to mess the poundation that mom just put in. 

That too, I feel very uneasy when I wear make up. I'm not used to it. I don't like wearing make ups. Make ups makes my face to become heavier and I hate that. 

As she finish her song, she wave at the crowd and come back in the back stage with her passionate expression. She looks very happy and she looks uneasy earlier too. I bow 90 degrees at her and lend my right hand to congratulate for her wonderful voice that the crowd likes it.

"Thanks" she said and walk away ignoring my hand. I slowly force a smile and fold my fingers together and stand straight as possible. She may have the best voice but she have the worst attitude from all of us here. 

"She's very haughty." I look over my shoulder and saw Ailee. She's also here for the contest. We met one of the contest that I join when I was in sophomore year. 

"I'm sorry?" I ask in confusion. 

"She's very haughty. She always think that she is the best among us or every contest that she join." I tilt my head as I don't get what she mean.

"Do your best Ji eun. I will cheer for you after this." she smile and her name was announce.

"Our next contestant is from HaniGkuk High School. Everyone give of applause to Ms. Amy Lee!" the MC announce and Ailee give me a sweet smile.

You can heard the crowd's cheering for her. I smile as I hope she can win but I hope I can win too even if just a runner up that's fine with me. But I feel uneasy again as I heard her beautiful voice of her. She sing an american song, 'Halo'.

I walk around the back stage trying to calm myself from the nervousness. I close my eyes thoroughly and heard someone laugh. Not a giggle or chuckled but a laugh. I open my eyes and look over my shoulder and saw Lee Hi looking at me in a supercillious way. 

"Nervous, right?" she ask while eating her ice cream? She eat ice cream after singing, that's bad for her. "Lee Hi-ah, that-" 

"This? it's nothing. Don't bother other's business okay?" she said in a strict voice. "But-" I try to stop her once again but, "Don't." she said.

"But that's bad for you Lee Hi-ah." 

"Don't call me Lee Hi-ah we're not even close." she said in irritated tone. Yes we're not close, don't be too close Ji eun. I just bow at her showing my polite side. I just really want to be close with everyone that's why they call me the friendly IU.