Saudade

tick

you are a time bomb

(wait, stop. Rewind)

you are fourteen when we first 

met and laughed like a child

(something you never got to be)

you are fifteen when you forget me the first time

smashed your head and woke up in the hospital

(i can't really blame you for that one)

you are sixteen when you grab my hand

both of us giddy with adrenaline

(you held tight until the next ride)

you are seventeen when we start falling apart

your dad, our lives, polar directions

(and i let you go)

you are eighteen and don't walk at graduation

they said you couldn't be there

(i still looked for you in the crowd)

you are nineteen and you are gone

(rewind)

you are nineteen and you are gone

(rewind)

you are nineteen and you are gone

(rewind)

you are nineteen

(i'm sorry)

and you will never be twenty

you were a time bomb

and i let you

e x p l o d e.