in my dream.
i've been dating connor for years.
our relationship was unbreakable,
i was in love with him.
we had to keep it private.
it was hard to..
days became longer, and i became very depressed.
i went out to a club with my friends.
and i was introduced to this breathtaking man.
knowing me, i got shit faced drunk.
i was slurring on my words when i figured out that his name is
jacob bixenman.
i took him home.
then i slept with him.
connor came in the next morning, saw us together and it completely tore him apart.
he made jacob leave.
and god he looked like actual heaven in the morning.
of course, i was having a bad hangover but connor and i got into the worst fight we've ever had. i'm talking about screaming, yelling, threatening and even crying...
we both ended up crying our eyes out.
i ended up leaving with tears streaming down my cheeks at some of the stuff
he said about me.
i couldn't think straight.
i was shaking horribly.
and i found somewhere to crash for the rest of the day.
i kept getting lectures from my friends.
i was drunk..
of course i went back.
we made up somehow, and it went back to normal after that.
like it never happened,
our relationship kept moving further and i fell again.
yet i felt something inside my chest about that man jacob.
i was talking to him in secret.
