i woke up to the best thing you could ever imagine.
there being light.
i parted my lips, fluttering my eyes open.
jacob is twisting a strand of one of my curls around his finger, laying next to me with a soft smile.
why did he come back.
"jacob?" i spoke weakly.
"hey baby yeah, it's jacob."
i instantly wrapped my arm
around him, nuzzling my face into his chest while sobbing.
"shhhhh, i've got you,"
"god, i missed you with every fiber in my body, jacob bixenman."
"are you alright? i missed you more, tro."
"i'm more than alright, y..you're back.. you're actually here.. i.. thought i was never gonna see you again."
i spoke even more weak before hiccuping.
"hey. i wouldn't dream of never seeing you again or pushing your beautiful curls out of your face."
jacob whispered, rubbing my back soothingly making me feel so broken just at the touch. i've needed him for months and just to see him again is unbearable, so fucking unbearable.
"daddy has been out of control..."
"what do you mean?"
he raised an eyebrow, clearly worried.
i shakily raised up with wet cheeks, raising my shirt up.
he swallowed thickly.
"oh god.. i'm so sorry, baby-"
"it's okay. i can't feel a thing now!"
i smiled laying back down for my
dark blue eyes to meet his lightened hazel ones with sadness filled into them.
"you don't know how bad
i feel for leaving, i won't again.
i just needed to escape from here."
"i understand, jay."
a wide smile spread across his cheeks, laughing a bit.
"you know, there's still time,
but for now it's time to go back to sleep,"
i frowned, shaking my head in panic with tears bubbling at the corner of my eyes.
"no.. what if i wake up and you're not here with me?
i can't deal with that again. no."
"i'll be right here,, holding you in my arms,"
he ran his thumb against my cheek as he cupped it.
jacob leaned forward, locking his lips with my own making that tear roll down my other cheek as i kissed back slowly & meaningfully. i inhaled through my nose once it got deeper, making him feel like i picked the right ice cream. eventually, i pulled away with swollen lips while looking at him through hooded eyes.
his thumb pushed against my top lip, dragging down my bottom one slowly before feeling it hit my chin making me gasp.
"go to sleep."
i sighed out more relaxed,
i felt him tugging his blanket over us and he wrapped his arms around me
in the tightest way possible,
holding me so close.
jacob ran his fingers through my curls some more, complimenting me making me flush red and smile. i felt myself getting sleepier and sleepier with each massage of my scalp. if i had one thing to choose to do for the rest of my life,
it would be laying here with him like this.
"you don't need him.
why haven't you realized that yet, pretty baby?
he kissed the top of my head feeling himself feel even more sad knowing how daddy affects me.
his fingers traced against the skin of my arm, humming while feeling himself get tired at how relaxing and comfortable this is.
but stopped on a place that made me wince in my sleep, his heart started beating faster when he gently turned my pale arm around.
it's a lot smaller than it's supposed to be.
"has he been eating?" jacob wondered in his head, but what made him really wonder and feel worried is..
the words cut deep into my arm.
you belong to me
it was deep and looks as if it was done with a knife.
did connor do that?
he turned my arm back over,
closing his eyes while feeling his heart literally burning at the pain.
nobody deserves that.
not even i deserve that.
fuck you, daddy.
