꒰ CIGARETTES ✔️ ꒱ - CHANGKI ˎˊ˗

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SLIGHTLY EDITED • 31 DEC 2019
(literally only added a sentence or sth)

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changkyun's lips parted slightly as if in surprise. he couldn't quite understand why would kihyun say such thing, such a lie. he wasn't the type to do it.

"you miss me?" he repeated, bringing his cigarette back to his lips, still not very impressed by kihyun's presence. only by his words.

as kihyun sighed, smoke escaped his mouth. he grabbed changkyun's hand with his free one, looking at the boy in the eyes.

usually when one looked into someone's eyes, it was normal for them to at least catch some glimpse of emotion.

it was different with kihyun. it was like staring at glass. cold. expressionless. and changkyun never really believed he had emotions nor a soul.

"yes. i miss you. i can't stand looking at you from afar, knowing that you are not mine anymore."

his face made him look way too vulnerable. way too innocent. and changkyun hated it. he hated believing that kihyun was like that because it was all a lie. he was way too good at pretending.

from the experience he had with kihyun he knew that in the end he only suffered. and if he gave in this time, too, it was going to happen again.

he didn't want this.

"i miss you, too."

he hated it.

"can we fix everything and go back?"

he shouldn't be believing kihyun.

"we can."

he was going to end up being hurt again.