Never Again (Bajan Canadian FF)

Ch. 17

Never Again

Ch. 17

*1 week later*

(Mitch's POV)

I'm really happy she forgave me.

I would be so lost without Morgan.

Now I just have to clear it up with that one girl.

She thinks were dating now because of one kiss, and to be fair I was drunk.

I just don't know if I should tell Morgan, she might get mad.

But at the same time if I don't tell her, I run the risk of her finding out.

Then Morgan will be even madder.

I'm just so confused, why can't this just all end.

The monsters once under my bed are now in my head.

I'm starting to lose it, but I have to stay strong.

Not for me, not for my friends, but for Morgan.

I can't put stress over her like this.

I'm just going to have to tell her.

(Morgan's POV)

I don't know if taking Mitch back was the best idea ever.

He could break my heart again, and he would just apologize again.

Don't think like that Moe, he would never do that.

Would he?

Am I wrong?

Is he just like everyone else?

How can I honestly trust Mitch?

I can't.

I just need something to take this pain away.

Then it struck me.

My razor, it's in my bag.

I promised I wouldn't do this again.

But, what do I have left.

He's just going to leave me again.

As I run into the bathroom, I look at my reflection in the mirror.

I'm not good enough, not for Mitch, not for my family, not for anyone.

As I traced the blade over my older scars, I felt tears fall out onto my hand.

Why?

Why?

Why?

Is all that replayed over and over in my head.

Does he not see I'm broken in the eyes?

Every day I think I'm so happy.

I've even tricked my own self to think I'm happy.

I'm not though.

One cut,

Two cuts,

Three cuts,

Four,

Come on Darling, what's one more?

Five cuts,

Six cuts,

Seven cuts,

Eight,

Oh, what a mess this will create.

After 10 minutes of sitting in the bathroom, Mitch called my name.

Morgan?.. He called

I just sat there in shook, what's he going to say?

He'll think I'm a freak.

I panicked, which made me cry even harder.

I started to get scared; as I heard his feet walk past the bathroom.

What do I do?

How do I clean this up?

I think Mitch heard me, because the door started to open up slowly.

(Mitch's POV)

After I look for her, I heard crying in the bathroom.

As I walk over to the door, the crying gets louder.

As I open the door, I see Morgan hugging her legs.

That's when I noticed the blood all over her left arm.

I ran over and hugged her tight.

I think she was scared because she shifted uncomfortably, away from me.

Once I cleaned her arms all up, and wrapped them up.

I had one question.

"Show me your scars" I asked softly not to startle her.

"But,....why?" She asked quiet and quizzically.

"I want to see how many times you needed me and I wasn't there," I whispered as a tear rolled down my cheek.

A/n: Okay, well I'm done for this chapter. Sorry for some vividly things said, but it came to mind while writing this. Also, I'm sorry I didn't writing one the two days I said. I got confused what the day was.. Whoops. Well, here you go. Bye