Never Again (Bajan Canadian FF)

Ch. 20

*1 month later*

Morgans POV

I still can't believe what Dakota said.

We haven't talked that much since then.

I did tell Mitch.

But, he didn't yell.

He just thought it was stupid for Dakota to say that, when I'm dating Mitch.

I almost feel bad for him.

It's not like he chose to like me.

It kind of just happens.

I'm thinking about visiting him.

He seems so sad.

It's like what happened to me in 11th grade.

*Flashback*

"Hey Zack!" I said happily.

Zack was my crush at the time.

I thought we were friends, though things happen.

An, friendships brake.

"What do you want, sweetie" Zach said back.

"Nothing just coming to say hi" I spoke.

"Hey, people have been saying you have a crush on me?"

"Is that true?" He said

"Uhhh. Yeah sort of." I said trying to make him not hear me.

"Well, I don't like you."

"Frankly you're annoying; I think we shouldn't be friends anymore." He spoke

Then what he said next really shocked me.

"Bitch, I never like you anyways." He muttered.

What I heard practically broke my heart.

He could have just ripped it in half.

Then it would have been easier to put it back together.

But instead, you tore it.

Piece by piece you shredded it.

No one could fix it.

On one wanted to.

Because they look at what he made me.

A girl with permanent tears on my face.

I was just an empty void.

There was no desire to want to love again.

Because there is only fear of ruining what I tried so hard to build back up.

*End of flashback*

The biggest problem was,

I am the girl who cannot love herself.

But, will love you with all that I have.

I am the girl who cannot fix herself.

But, I will make sure

You're never broken.

I am the girl who

Wants to die.

But, will spend my life keeping

You safe.

I am the girl who

Harms herself.

But, I would never

Do a thing to hurt you.

I am the girl who

Is always a second

Choice.

 But, you're always

First to me.

I am the girl who

You'll regret leaving

Because I never

Would've left you.

But just look at life.

We don't always get what we want.

It's a never ending game, or a maze.

What we have is what we got.

You can't change that.

You told me I was a beautifully written poem,

That deserved to be admired.

And it made me wonder

Why you kept trying to

Rewrite me.

And as a kid I told my dad that I loved,

How pretty the winter looked.

And he replied "Why does it make you so sad then?"

And that's when I realized that

Sometimes

The things you love

The most are

The ones that give you

Misery. 

As I walked out the doors to Dakotas, I saw him walking past the house.

"Dakota! Hey, I haven't seen you in forever!" I shouted as I ran towards him.

"Oh hey..." He mumbled.

"Is everything okay?" I asked being generally concerned.

"Yeah, I'm fine."

"Still a little sad, but hey."

"I can't stay sad forever" he said putting on a smile.

"Well, where are you going?"

"I'll come along with." I said.

"I was just about to go to the store, but if you want to come that's fine." He repeated

"Okay" I spoke

We talked to whole time, it was nice.

He was actually getting better.

I thought he was getting worse, but it doesn't look like it after talking.

He said he met a girl, that's like me.

Very kind, and pretty he described her.

I'm so happy for him.

He needed just a little love.

To take him back on track.