Dreams... (A Twilight Fanfic)

Chapter 5

Chapter Five

After I took a shower I walked downstairs and thought about calling Edward, but if our conversation lasted too long, I would be late for work. So I grabbed my keys and left. On the way there I tried to find a way to explain to him how much I regret putting him in that position. Would he hate me for the kiss I planted on him? Wait – he said that he didn't mind my arms being wrapped around him! Did he not tell me the truth, or was he just trying to be nice? Urrgh – why must life be that confusing?!

I still ended up late that morning anyways, concentrating was clearly not on my agenda. The first hour went horrible; orders were messed up, I couldn't count how many drinks I spilt. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't focus. All I could think about was him. How natural it felt to have my arms around him! I know how people say that they have found there true love, but this felt so much deeper than that. To stay away from him now was killing me.

As the night quickly passed by, my mind started to become very fuzzy. Next thing I knew my boss called for me. I walked towards him as he motioned for me to go into his office. Oh this couldn’t be good at all. I sat down and waited for the ball to drop.

“Bella, you seem very distracted lately.” he stated. “If I ask, will you tell me what is going on with you?”

“Sorry, it's just that I’ve been having a lot of nightmares that’s been keeping me up at night.”

“Bella do you need to take some time off?” he asked. “Maybe you should take a couple of weeks?”

“Are you…?” I said with a broken voice, and then started again. “Are you firing me? “

“No Bella, I didn't mean for you to take it that way. Just take a couple of weeks. I can see that something is bothering you. It is starting to affect your work. So I would rather you take a couple of weeks off, then to come in here in this state of mind and end up that I have to fire you.”

“I see… Well, I don't want you to fire me so I guess I'm taking two weeks off. Who will you get to take my shift? There is an application under the front counter; the girl said she needed a job really bad. Besides, I think Nicole is going to quit soon.

“Are you sure that you don't want to fire me?” I asked flatly.

As soon as he reassured me that I still had a job here as long as I wanted it, I apologized again, but took the chance and went to my truck – just to sit there thinking about the money I had in the bank. It would be enough to cover my expenses for two weeks, but I would have to do double shifts afterwards. Well, Jess won't like it much tomorrow, but my fun money just got cut in half. So I was hoping that she didn't have anything extravagant planned. I left the parking lot just to switch my focus on Edward. I still don't know if I should call him or not. My nerves were shot. Calling? Not calling? What if…? URGH!

When I finally arrived at home I saw that I had two messages, with an unknown number. Nervously I pushed the play button.

“Hi, Bella. It's Jess, just wanted to see if we were still on for tomorrow night. I'll call you from my parents’ house. Talk to you soon.” I pushed delete, then went to the next one.

“Hey Bella, this is Alice, Edward's sister. Just wanted to call and let you know that Edward is fine, but my family won't be home until tomorrow afternoon. So I'm sure that my brother will give you a call by then. Give me a call if you need to talk, okay? I'll chat with you later, bye now.”

I plopped down on the couch. Well, I guess calling Edward was out. I closed my eyes in to relax and think. Why or how could I have Edward in my dreams all these years before I met him? How is that even possible? The sensible side of me told me that it's not possible, but the other side told me to look at the evidence. Ugh, why am I even contemplating this scenario? The sensible side should win hands down.