Over Time || Bryson Tiller

E L E V E N

"Cece, I can't explain how much I miss the old us. And I want to make everything better, my actions have been so dumb for the last couple months and I don't wanna just sweet talk you into wanting me back because that's what I've been doing for the last months we have been together and it has been going so fucking bad for us, bad for you and I know its not healthy for you and I'm so sorry. I feel like such an asshole for putting you through everything that I did and I can't believe how much I have risked losing the woman for stupid shit. Odell and Aubrey and I talked it made me realize that I am the only one that is acting like a kid. You don't deserve any of this, I don't deserve you at all. All you have done is put up with my bullshit, you stayed loyal, you cared for me when you couldn't even care for your self. The baby is so fucking important to me and you are just as important and I don't want to lose either of you. I miss everything about the old us and I'm going to change my ways, I can't go on anymore doing this to our family you and my baby girl deserve so much better." I finally confessed to her. I have been holding this in for so long, my insecurity's have got the best of me for the last couple of weeks. I felt so bad yet I kept messing up it was impossible for me to continue to keep saying that I love her and then keep acting

"Bryson I will never stop loving you no matter how fucked up the shit you do is, but we need a little break." My heart sunk a little, it wasn't what I expected at all, she has never left me before.

"I don't want to break up and I don't want to see other people but I want to spend a little time to myself. Just to find myself.  I don't want you to feel like I'm breaking up with you because I'm not I just want some space."

I knew I messed up things but didn't know it would be this bad. Things are different now, she admits she loves me but yet she regrets it, and i know i cant make it better because I keep failing. 

"Look Cori I know I messed up but I am not letting you go. You can have your space as a matter a fact i can go for two months on this tour but when I get home I'm going to make sure I am here for you through this pregnancy and thats final." She nodded head. I guess it was final we were taking a break. 

*Two hours later*

"Mitch Im going on the tour but only for two months. ONLY."

"Good that you at least are going." I huffed, hes always making things hard for me. The tour starts in four days and I really didn't want to go. Things were just going well. I'm going to make things good again after this break things were going to change. 

  I got my suit cases and started to pack. As I packed all my things from my closet all I could do was think about Cori and the good times we would have. I let fame affect our relationship and thats where things had to end never again will I chase money over affection. 

I promise. 

I finished packing fast, most of the clothes I put in there I wasn't going to use, because of my stylist. I made the calls to my team letting everyone know what was going on. Even though I didn't want to go on this tour everyone was relying on me to get it done and I wasn't going to let everyone down for my wants.  I brought all of my things down to the door so i didn't have to go back upstairs later and get them.  All the lights down stairs were off except the kitchen everything in the house seemed off nothing was happy. I walked over and sat on one of the chairs next to the island. I put my head down.

This isn't what I wanted. This isn't what my mom would have wanted for me. This isn't what my grandmother would have wanted for me.