Why do I feel like this?

Twenty~Six

Zane pov
UGH HOW CAN I BEEN SO STUPID TO THINK THAT THEY ONLY THOUGHT OF THEMSELVES AND ME. I HATE MY STUPID LIFE I CANT HAVE ANYTHING EVEN IF I TRY TO WAIT FOR THE RIGHT TIME. WHY AM I EVEN BORN, I JUST DON'T GET IT, LIFE WAS ALREADY HARD ENOUGH TRYING TO FIT IN. NOW NOTHING IS IMPORTANT ANYMORE I SHOULD JUST DIE......
Wait just die? Am I crazy? I'm not sure.
You know the right thing too do, go on just do it.
Wait aren't you going to say. "Oh no Zane don't do it, you have a life to live people care about you still."
Nope, they did hurt your feelings everything you did in life just did nothing.
You're right I'm going to do what I want, nobody can stop me, I do have that knife in the bathroom and nobody ever even cared about me not even god himself, I was just a mistake in life.
Don't worry kid you're doing the right thing with what you want in life and thats not love you don't need it anymore.
You're right about one thing but why would I care come on we have one thing to do and it will be all over forever.

Author pov
Zane knew someone was going to stop him so he put many things in front of the door well everywhere so nobody could get in. After that was done he finally went up to the bathroom locked it and got the knife out from behind the mirror. While he was getting ready three fellow people went running to his place to talk thing through with him. Travis, Gene and Kawaii~Chan couldn't stop running until they got to Zane before he did something stupid.

"My legs they hurt..."

"Come on Travis we have no time too loose right now."

"Gene~Kun is right Travis~Kun, we have to make sure Zane~Senpai is okay Kawaii~Chan is getting worried."

"Ok I'm up lets go."

They all made it to Zane's place but when they where about to get in, the door was jammed, all three of them went to see if their was another way in but no. Until Travis got an idea he forgot he had an ax with him so he to the front the other two followed him. Finally after trying so hard he got the door to open by breaking it. All three went inside calling Zane's name but no answer.

Zane pov
My time has come at last, me finally dying after all this time.
CUT
For ever being born
CUT
Even having friends
CUT
For being a mistake
CUT,CUT,CUT,CUT
Hmmm blood so good but their is one more thing I forgot.
STAB
Even trying to love three people.....And just like that everything turned black.

1 done 4 more to go.