Why do I feel like this?

Twenty~Nine

Zane pov
Everything is ment to not happen. Life is life that never expected me I understand that now. I was a mistake maybe god thought so. I do things that I regret like falling in love with 3 idiots, having it with the three of them. Wanting more from them because I couldn't think straight at all. It's not my fault another side of me the wanting side did it for me. It knew I wanted to feel love it all happened with Kawaii~Chan. The day Aphmau ask me to bring soup for her, the way I slept with her that day as well.

Then with Travis. For me it started about a week later or so I started to hang out with Kawaii~Chan. Aphmau said we where going to play turth or dare. She dared me to kiss Kawaii~Chan I backed out. Then Travis came to cheer me up then all of sudden he kissed me. My first kissed. I kissed back I felt love with him as well.

Last Gene. Now more happen it was another truth or dare. That day Travis kissed me again because Aphmau dared him to. Then both Travis and Kawaii~Chan started fighting again I couldn't take it I left and went home. I heard someone knock on my door I obviously opened it. Gene was there I let him in. He asked why I left all I said was that I just got annoyed. He understood very well I felt pretty safe then out of no where he kissed me. His soft lips everything was amazing.

But now nothing is right now I died I killed myself it was what I wanted from the start. I was enjoying it until my eyes opend up I was in a room I saw everyone.

"Where am I?"

"ZANE!!!!"

So I didn't really died huh I'm at the hospital, thats what it looks like but why if I'm asking my very self.

"Oh ZuZu you're ok mommy is here no need to worry."

"BABY BROTHER YOUR OK WE THOUGHT WE ALMOST LOST YOU!"

"ZANE WHY WOULD YOU TRY TO KILL YOURSELF I ALMOST DIED FROM CRYING!?!" Said upset Aphmau

"ZuZu start explaining right now!"

Looks like I have to explain a lot right now.

Yup short as well but the next chapter is the last I'm going to cry like a 5 year old but the last chapter will be long. 4 down 1 left.