Finding myself

Chapter 2

Angie's P.O.V

I know it will be really difficult for me to be here and act like nothing happened to me and smile every day to act like I'm okay but inside I'm dying of pain and fear. I won't let fear and pain stop me from trying to be happy though.

As I was walking through the park deep into my thoughts. I've changed a lot not only my looks but also my personality, I'm not the same Angie I used to be. I've learned so much especially that I can't trust anyone not even my self. As I was deep in those thought to people just jumped up from behind a bush and scared the living crap out of me.

As I turned around I saw it was German and Violetta I was so scared and confused on why they were following me.

"Hey" I said

"Is something wrong Angie?"She asked a bit worried about as she and German joined me walking.

"no just thinking that's it" I said as I look towards her

"about what?" She asked

"Just stuff you know" I say

"like what?" She asked

"like the studio." I said

"really I'm really excited to go back are you?"She asked

"yeah of course" I said with a smile

"oh I have to go now the girls are waiting for me bye dad and Angie." She said as she left

"Violetta please be home by 8 Alcock  please no later than that please" He said yelling Violetta turned around rolled her eyes and left running

I continued to think again which I didn't really want to happen.

"So you know how you are really good with the thing you helped me with earlier I was wondering if you can help me." He said

I thought for a sec it will help me not to think that much for the rest of the summer as there is still a month so why not.

"sure why not." I say with a little smile

"Thank you, as I don't have Ramallo with me I really need help with these things" he says

"Yeah, of course" I said going back into my little world.

I heard German talking about something but I didn't really hear him as I was thinking AGAIN in my little world.

"So what do you think?"

"about what?l I said as I got out of my little world of thoughts.

"You didn't hear a word I said" He asked

"no sorry" I said

"It's okay, it doesn't matter anyway." He said as he sighed

"Are you sure?" I asked

"yes, so what are you really thinking about?" He asked

"What do you mean?" I asked

" know you and I know you're not thinking about the studio." He said

"Its Just personal stuff." I said looking down at my hands

"Do you wanna talk about it?" He asked looking at me with these beautiful eyes.

"no, but thanks" I said

"okay but if you wanna talk I'm here." He said

"Why" I said

"Why, what?" He asked

" why are you being nice to me because you hated me for lying and now you act Like nothing happened?" I said

" Because I lied as well. I lied to Violetta about her family and I kept her away from you and I understand, you just wanted to be near her no matter the cost and I understand it now" He said

" Understand what, because it doesn't seem like you did understand okay, you weren't  the one that didn't have his family with him and lost his sister and his dad I did and you took her away from me, the only family I had left, you took her away you will never know how I felt I was alone I had no one I didn't have my sister and now I don't have anyone no one like always I'm alone and have no one to lean to; at least you have her and Olga and Ramallo you always had them you even Have your parents I don't so don't say you have any idea about what I feel or that you understand because YOU don't okay, you don't have any idea about what I been through these couple of months so just shut up and keep your stupid opinion to yourself." I said very mad

He just looked at me with a surprised look in his eyes, I may have been a bit to harsh on him.
German's P.O.V

I was surprised to hear Angie talk like that. Especially because she never spoke to anyone like that at least I don't think so.

"Angie you I want you to know you have me and Violetta now and you have your mum too I'm sure about it."

"I don't have my mum. she died when I was younger and I don't have you guys you all are Strangers to me I'm just getting to know you all and like always I am alone." She said but I know angelica is alive I just saw her a few weeks ago.

"what are you talking about Angelica is alive?" I asked a bit confused

"She's not my mum at least not my biological mom, she's my step mom" she said

Angie's P.O.V

I just told him one of my biggest secrets I don't know why but I had to get it out of me I'm tired of it and I don't care if he tells anyone I don't care anymore. I just want my life to stop being a whole lie already and maybe German can help me find my brother he is older then me he is like almost Maria's age but younger I haven't seen him since my dad died he was old enough and move away. I miss him.

"WHAT???" He said surprised

"yeah she isn't my mum, my mum died in a car accident when I was younger I survived but she Didn't." I said

"So wait is Maria your..." he said

"She's my half sister we have the same dad but not mum." I said looking down trying to keep my tears back

"I..I...I." He tried to speak

" You don't have to say anything and I'm sorry for screaming at you like that I guess I let some anger out that I been keeping in" I said

One of her secrets is out and it's a big one but what is really bothering her what happened a few weeks ago, what is she talking about? well, German tell anyone or keep it to himself what made Angie like this, what made her be full of anger what is it?? Well, German help her find her brother well he ?? what is going on with her what can it be?