Not leaving without a fight

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Beths POV

"hey babe how-Beth?"

"mmmnnn..."

"beth???!!"

"just leave me alone!!" i screamed at him.

he just stood there eyes wide open with shock and a look of hurt, and pain etched across his face. and for a moment there, i actually felt bad, but then i snapped out of it.

"umm a-alright....im sorry." he says distantly as he walks out the door.

whats wrong with me!?

i just wanted to go out and have some fun, forget about all this baggage, and i just end up putting more fucking baggage and problems into my fucking life!! SMASH!!!!

the loud smash of the vase across my room as i throw it onto the floor with all my might.

The shard of glass lay on the floor as i stare at them, i am memorized by them.

i take a step close not caring if i get glass in my feet. i see the sharpest piece of glass that i see, i crouch down and pick it up.

within second all the memories,  the first time i cut, the first time i REALLY cut. i still have the scar. the cuts across my wrists which i had been able to cover up so far, it had all the just come back to me in a flash. was i really going to throw away all the hard work of trying to stay away from it and to stop, was i? i questioned myself, but before my brain could answer i feel my arm slip across to my other arm and slice open a fresh new cut on my wrist. i had my answer.

im back, the old Beth is back, and i have a good feeling that she not going without a fight.

:+!+!);'-?-'=;+!#!*?*?+!-?;-'#!#/$-:-;+;+!+'"='!+!

I know its a short chapter, but i just felt like i really wanted to update and let you guys really get a feel for whats about to happen.

let me know what you think :)

-Gabby xx

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