Beths POV
"hey babe how-Beth?"
"mmmnnn..."
"beth???!!"
"just leave me alone!!" i screamed at him.
he just stood there eyes wide open with shock and a look of hurt, and pain etched across his face. and for a moment there, i actually felt bad, but then i snapped out of it.
"umm a-alright....im sorry." he says distantly as he walks out the door.
whats wrong with me!?
i just wanted to go out and have some fun, forget about all this baggage, and i just end up putting more fucking baggage and problems into my fucking life!! SMASH!!!!
the loud smash of the vase across my room as i throw it onto the floor with all my might.
The shard of glass lay on the floor as i stare at them, i am memorized by them.
i take a step close not caring if i get glass in my feet. i see the sharpest piece of glass that i see, i crouch down and pick it up.
within second all the memories, the first time i cut, the first time i REALLY cut. i still have the scar. the cuts across my wrists which i had been able to cover up so far, it had all the just come back to me in a flash. was i really going to throw away all the hard work of trying to stay away from it and to stop, was i? i questioned myself, but before my brain could answer i feel my arm slip across to my other arm and slice open a fresh new cut on my wrist. i had my answer.
im back, the old Beth is back, and i have a good feeling that she not going without a fight.
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I know its a short chapter, but i just felt like i really wanted to update and let you guys really get a feel for whats about to happen.
let me know what you think :)
-Gabby xx
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The Pretty Reckless
FanficBethany Styles. A girl who just wants someone to love her, to help her out of the horror she calls her life. Always being close to Harry, never worrying about anything. All that changes when her only friend, her brother leaves for X-Factor. Now Be...