purpose

Career center Kelly

What the fuck am i doing ‼️ April 1 is coming up, which is the deadline for the Larry H. Parker scholarship deadline. I am getting it done this week! (Just talk. I didn't get it done yet)
Anyway. That isn't why I'm here writing and it may take me a while before my thesis is discovered. Therefore just bare with me.
I joined the softball team. It wasnt much like 'tryouts' more like if your interested get your physical and gear and your on the team. That is not why I'm writing either.
Im writing because Ms. Kelly.
After practice today, i crossed her path as we both left the school. I asked her for 25 cent. Bus fair is 50 i had a quarter. At first she said nah, no change. I walked off like, "cool I was planning to walk home anyway."
She stopped me. She said wait and took her backpack off and began scrambling for change. You see this why i fuck with Kelly cause she broke bread wit a nigga. She gave me 30 cent ( in the end i spent then change on a cookie and walked home with Steve) .
This to is still not my reason that I indispensably felt that i needed to write.
The reason, looking back at the top of things, i appreciate the guidance Kelly apportions even though she probably is not aware that she is making connections in my mind.
She asked me, as she gave me the 30 cents, "you didnt bring 50 cent?" I argued that i hadnt planned to take the bus but practice had me tired so i was considering the bus. That question stuck with me.
I connected that question to a question she had asked me before a while ago.
I was lucky enough to attend a college fair and while on the bus we all had to write our names for attendance .
Kelly handed me a clipboard, mind you she had a pen in her hand although she didnt give me her pen. I gestured for her pen but instead she asked, "you didn't bring a pen?" I immediately felt obligated to agree. I was on my way to a college fair and had no pen. (Ironically, i left the college fair with about 17 pens 6 highlighters and alot of other school supplies). These two questions; you didnt bring 50 cent ? You didn't bring a pen? They immediately clashed into one another like two speeding trains bolting toward one another.
The necessary message i took away from her questions is this. Be equip. Be prepared. Be ready. Be punctual. Be professional. The girl who has a pen when no one else does, is the girl that is remembered, the girl that is admired. Ms independent taught me that the little things come together making your life either harder or easier and it is all up to me. Kelly probably never will know they cognitive awareness she dropped like a Microphone but i appreciate that mentorship and i trust her opinion. That Is my reason for writing today.