Vidcon Changed My Life (COMPLETED)

Goodbye

Walking back into my old flat I saw something I wish I could just unsee. Unlocking the door I opened the door slowly as saw Dan on the floor more pale than usual with a note by him, there was an empty bottle in his hands. Screaming for help I ran up to Dan and put my head on his chest looking for a pulse, it was faint and he was dieing. Calling the ambulance I had Dan's head on my lap and keptwhispering to him to hang in there. It seemed forever and he was losing his breathe quickly... Not knowing what to do I pushed on his chest and put my lips on his breathing into him.

Amanda: DON'T YOU DARE LEAVE ME DAN! I NEED YOU, PLEASE DON'T GO! DAN!!!

Then just as that I was crying into Dan's chest as a bunch of people grapped Dan and ripped him away from me, leaving me there to cry by myself. Then one of the ambulance people came up to me and asked if I wanted to ride in the back as they tried to get Dan to the hospital. Running to the big white block I couldn't believe what was going on, just kept running and jumped i and was holding Dan's hand. I refuse to let him leave me like this...

*flashback*

My life is a mess... "Whore, Slut, no one cares for you, just kill yourself..." I can't handle critism well. Just I don't want to feel like this anymore, just want to end it all. No... no more... no more pain. This is it...

My computer was on still playing Youtube videos until I heard a voice "Don't do it" Looking at my computer I saw a man called Danisnotonfire and AmazingPhil. Dan was the one talking and I know it sounds cheesy but it stopped me and ever since then it felt like it was a message for me.

*end of flashback*

Hugging Dan's hand I refused to let him go even though we were on the way to the hospital. They were pumping his stomach right now and I just hoped he would be okay. Everything is all my fault... if I didn't go back to Joey.... if only Joey didn't kiss me that night! Why is this happening to me?!

Ambulance 1: Mam please let go of his arm we need to roll him in the hospital now!

Letting go of his arm I ran after him as they ran with him into the ER when a nurse dressed in white stopped me.

Nurse: Mam you can't go in there.

She was holding me back and I barked at her with tears rolling down my face. "Watch me!" Pushing her arm away I ran through with a bunch of nurses trying to stop me but I caught up with Dan, I refuse to leave him! Then they kept going and rolled him into a room that I quickly snuck into.

Doctor: You can't be here.

He looked at me serious and then the ambulance person talked to him and they let me through. Crying on his shoulder my tears dripped down my face and hit the cold hard floor.

Amanda: Dan I need you...

The doctor placed his hand on my shoulder as he began to speak but I couldn't hear him all I could think of was the memories I had with Dan. He's my bestfriend I can't loose him...

Doctor: Amanda?

Shaking my head I barely heard the doctor and looked up at him.

Amanda: Yeah?

Doctor: He'll be fine just try to not worry to much, we are going to move him into a normal room now and you can spend the night there. Also just stay with him, he might be passed out for a long time.

Amanda: Okay, thank you.

Walking with Dan as they strolled him into a new room that was a dark blue and two windows with dark blue curtains that blocked out the moonlight, machines everywhere, a small tv hanging from the ceiling, and a small door that led to a bathroom. Dan would love it he likes the color blue I just hope he isn't mad that I came in time to help save his life. Just I can't do this without Dan!

My phone vibrated in my pocket and as I took it out I saw 10 missed calls from "Joey Bear ;)" and 3 messages. Shit! I forgot to tell Joey what was going on! Texting him back will quick I tried to explain everything as I pulled up a chair by Dan's bed and slowly dozed off with his hand in my lap.

Hearing a voice it sounded like Dan's but I was still so tired I couldn't open my eyes to see who it was.

?: What? Where am I? Oh shit! Amanda, what are you doing here?

Slowly being shaken I opened my eyes tiredly and saw a very panicked Dan staring at me for answers. My mind was still spinning from the lack of sleep but I tried to explain everything. 

Amanda: Dan! You're alive, you scared me so much! I'm so happy your not dead! (jumps into his arms hugging him) Don't ever leave me, please....

Crying silently I to his shoulder I felt his warmth get closer to me as he hugged me tightly.

Dan: I won't, just I missed you so much please don't move to LA. I will find someone new but I want to stay friends with you please. Just I will be happy as long as you are happy even if it isn't with me.

Amanda: Actually I went back to tell you that I'm moving to Brighton so I'm only 20 minutes away from you now. Also I'm living with Joey and we are basically dating now like he didn't ask yet but he might as well have.

Dan: Oh ok, I'm glad you aren't that far from me though. Promise to visit?

Amanda: I promise bestie! Oh and you might want to tell Phil where you are since I only told Joey.

Dan: Okay thank you for staying with me.

Amanda: Anything for you.

After a whole the doctors agreed to let him go under mine and Phil's supervision. Just as long as one of us is always there then Dan would be okay and he could go home. We got him back into his clothes and we got taxi all the way back to our flat where we found Joey and Phil panicked on the couch waiting for us with anticipation. Right as I opened the door Phil and Joey attacked Dan with hugs.

Phil: Don't scare me like that!

Joey: Are you okay?

Dan: I'm fine thanks to Amanda.

Smiling down at me I smiled up at him as we hugged then I walked towards Joey as we agreed to go looking for a flat today in Brighton.

Joey: You ready?

Amanda: Of course!

Walking back up to Dan I told him I would be here if he needed me anf to just ring me up if anything was wrong. Nodding me and Joey walked out hand in hand looking for a new place.