Oh god. Im breaking down. I feel like my life is being ripped apart. I just want to be alone. But I don't want to be alone. I want to be away from my family.(Not you Samma I want to be with you). I want to be with my friends. When I'm with my friends I feel the most love I ever feel. My family doesn't care about me. I hate it that im writing about things that aren't positive but I can't write about positive things if Im depressed. I have so much shit to do that I don't want to do, that I can't do. It's tearing me apart. I loooove having Crippling depression. Every time I think about meeting Gerard or Kelly I start crying because I know that will never happen. KELLY HASENT POSTED A YOUTUBE VIDEO IN FOUR DAYS AND IM FREAKING OUT well im not panicking im crying my head off. Kelly makes me so happy. I feel like im going crazy.
So many voices.
All telling me.
To kill myself.
