The Magnetic: Loving The Insensitive

Chapter 29

Chapter 29: Lexi Over Christina

Mabilis na nagsilapitan ang mga nurse para matulungan si Ella. Pero kahit marami na ang tumutulong sa kanya ay ayaw pa rin niyang bumitaw sa asawa ko. She was crying and begging Zeck to stay beside her.

"Don't leave me, Zeck! Please! I'm so scared! Please don't leave me!"

"Ella, hush. Please stop crying. It won't do any good to your baby," he said. Masuyo pa niyang hinaplos-haplos ang ulo ni Ella. "Don't worry, I won't leave you."

Para akong paulit-ulit na tinatadyakan sa dibdib. Hindi ako makahinga sa sobrang sakit ng nakikita ko. I couldn't just stand here and do nothing! I walked towards him and held onto his arm.

"Zeck, let's go home."

Kunot ang noong nilinga niya ako. "I can't just leave Ella here. She needs me."

That freakin' hurt. "There are a lot of nurses here who can help her."

"No! Please Zeck, don't leave me! I need you here!" Ella said crying.

Hinawakan ni Zeck ang mga kamay kong nakayakap sa braso niya at unti-unti iyong ibinaba. My lips parted. I couldn't read what his eyes were telling me because I was blinded with my own pain. 

"Ella needs me. Please understand," nahihirapang sabi niya.

My tears rolled down my cheeks. "But I need you, too." Our baby needs you.

"Missy..."

"We have to move the patient now!" sigaw ng doctor. 

"No!" sigaw ni Ella. "Ayoko!"

Nabaling sa kanya ang atensiyon ni Zeck. "Ella, you need to listen to them."

She shook her head frantically. "No! I don't want to! Not without you! Ayoko! Please don't leave me, Zeck!"

He looked torn as he turned to me. "I'm sorry. We will talk later when I get home."

I just watched him as he turned to leave with her. In the end, he still chose to be with Ella over me. It was still her. Ella was right: Zeck is still very much in love with her.

Zeck didn't come home. He just called to say that he couldn't go home yet. He came home after three days. I was in our room, staring at the wall when he entered our room. Nagtama ang mga mata namin. Ilang sandaling nagtitigan lang kami. 

He sighed. "Missy." I just looked at him tiredly. "Look, I know we have a lot of things to talk about. I have to explain every thing."

I just kept on looking at him, thinking why it had come to this. Then I recalled what abuela said: a person like me would never be happy. Perhaps, abuela was  right. I would never be happy because I just forced myself into Zeck's life out of selfishness. 

Ang lakas ng loob ko na sabihin kay Ella na akin si Zeck. Pero sa huli ay ako rin ang napahiya. Ako pa rin ang nasaktan dahil siya at siya pa rin at siya lang ang pipiliin ni Zeck. It would never be me. 

I wanted so bad to fight for him, but I was at the point where giving up was my only option. I'm tired. I couldn't fight for him anymore because I knew it was just a losing battle. He would never choose me. Then I remembered one of my favorite american shows, Grey's anatomy. He said I was more of a Christina Yang, but he still chose Lexie Grey.

I smiled bitterly. "Actually, you don't have to explain anything. "

His forehead creased. He looked confused. "Baby, no. I will tell you every thing, but not just now. There are a lot of things that I have to deal with first."