The Magnetic: Loving The Insensitive

Chapter 31

Chapter 31: Ultimate Goal

Let's sign it and free each other. He had no idea how much it hurt me to utter those words. He had no idea how much it took almost all of me to face him without breaking apart in front of him as I offered him his freedom. He had no idea how big a battle I was fighting inside not to beg him to choose and love me instead of Ella.

He scoffed and looked at me incredulously. "Do you f*cking know what you're saying?"

I swallowed the hurt and nodded calmly. "I'm giving your freedom back."

He cursed. Pinasadahan niya ng palad ang buhok. Then he sat down, looking so frustrated. "How could you even say that so calmly?"

Calmy? Are you kidding me? I'm dying inside! "This is the best thing to do. The sanest thing to do, Zeck. I owe you your freedom. Matter fact, I should've done this a long time ago. I shouldn't have-"

"Shut the f*ck up!" Natahimik ako. "What the hell did you just say? Annulling our marriage is the sanest thing to do? Why? I don't understand how it can be the sanest thing to do when we're having a baby!"

I once again swallowed the lump in my throat. Damn it! I can't cry in front of him! I just can't! "We shouldn't have gotten married in the married place. I shouldn't have done what I did. I'm truly sorry for that. Pero nagawa ko na eh. All I can do right now is to make things right." My voice shook.

Napatayo siya sa sinabi ko. "And your idea of making things right is by getting an annulment? What about our baby? You have another thing coming if you think I will let my baby grow up without me!"

"I will not do that, okay? You can still be a father to this baby even if we're not together anymore."

"Is that what you really want? A broken family for our baby?" he said like he was hurt.

No, I don't want that. But what can I do? I'm tired of being your option. I'm tired of sharing you with Ella. I can't deal with that anymore. And I won't let my baby grow up with that kind of sick set up. I'm done being stupid.

Pasimple kong pinunasan ang luhang tumulo sa pisngi ko at tumayo para kumuha ng ballpen. "Let's not make things more complicated."

"You haven't answered my question, Mishika. Do you really want our baby to grow up without a complete family?"

"Our baby will understand why we can't be together. We will explain it to her or him in the right time." Huminga ako ng malalim at umupong muli at inabot ang papel. 

"What are you doing?" mariing tanong niya.

"I'm signing it." 

My hand shook as I signed it. There. I've just signed my happiness away. I've just signed Zeck's free pass to be with Ella. I blinked back the tears and forced a smile as I handed him the pen. His lips parted. He looked stunned as he stared at the paper.

"Sign it, Zeck. That's your freedom."

I was shocked when he threw the pen away then ripped our annulment papers. He looked so angry, frustrated, and... hurt? Namamasa pa ang mga mata niyang bahagyang namumula.

"F*ck my freedom! I never asked for it! I never asked to be freed from you!" He was huffing in anger. "How dare you decide for me! I will never sign that!"

Bumuhos ang sakit at galit na pilit kong iniignora. I stood up and slapped him. How could he talk like he was the victim here!