Ever's POV
When I walk into my apartment I drop my groceries on the kitchen counter before hurrying to my room.
I take off my shoes and throw them against the floor, not caring if they hit something or even break. I hurry into my bathroom and look at myself in the full length mirror.
Tears are streaming down my face and my mascara is starting to run. I pull off my shirt and my pants, standing in front of my mirror in only my bra and underwear.
Disgusting.
Ugly.
Whore.
Not worthy.
All these words are running through my head as I stare at myself, hating what I see. I grab the hair scissors I have sitting on top of my bathroom counter.
I open them and bring the sharp end to my stomach. I make a small cut and watch as blood rises to the surface, but never goes any further.
Disgusting.
Cut.
Ugly.
Cut.
Whore.
Cut.
Not worthy.
Cut.
I continue this action a few more times and then move to my left wrist. I make three small cuts before I hear the front door open.
"Ever? Are you home?" I hear Halie yell as she closes the door.
I take a deep breath and calm my breathing. "Yeah." I yell back.
"Where are you?" She asks and I hear her getting closer.
"Don't come in here." I say as I try to hurry and put the scissors away. But I don't make it.
Halie stands in the doorway of my bathroom, her mouth hanging open.
"Ever..." She trails off.
"I told you not to come in here." I say as I start crying.
Halie rushes over and wraps her arms around me as I cry.
No one's ever going to want me.
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I wake up and look around the room. I'm on my bed and someone's put one of my giant hoodies on me.
"You're awake." I hear someone say by the door.
I slowly turn and see Halie standing at my door with a mug in hand. Steam is coming from the mug and Halie has tear stains on her face.
"How'd I get here?" I croak, feeling how dry my throat is.
Halie makes her way over and sits at the edge of my bed, looking at the floor.
"You were cutting again, Ever." She says quietly. She looks at me and I move my gaze anywhere else but her face, not wanting to see the disappointment in her eyes. "I thought you stopped?"
I sigh. "I had, but then I figured why not? No ones ever going to want me anyways."
Halie sighs a frustrated sigh and sets the mug down on my bedside table. "You can't talk like that Ever. You don't know that no man will ever want you."
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A Girl Named Ever May
Novela Juvenil"Axel, stop." I say as I pull away. "But I thought you liked me?" He says. "I do, but it's not like you like me." I say. "I like you, Ever. I always have." He says. "You do?" I ask. He nods. "And you trust me, don't you?" I hesitate, but then...
