stargaze || nct mark

{10}

i watch you as you walk through the hallway, keeping your distance from me.

i tried getting your attention by walking by you, but you never called out my name like you did for the last two years.

i eventually beat you to the classroom, walking in front of you.

"mark!" i hear someone call my name.

i turn around, both surprised and excited, expecting you to smile at me, waving your hand.

but it was only haechan, running to me, waving his arms around like a monkey.

you continue to look down at the ground when i try to get your attention.

for a quick second that felt like it was for years, you lift your head to lock eyes with me.

in those quick seconds, i try to explain everything to you through my gaze.

moon chaeah, i still love you.

the only reason i avoided you was because i got accepted in a music label as a trainee.

for the past year, i couldn't come to school because i was busy training.

i avoided you because we weren't allowed to date as a trainee.

but that didn't hold me back from loving you.

whenever you texted me, i acted like i didn't know you because our phones get checked every week.

i told my friends, haechan, jeno, jaemin, renjun, chenle, and jisung about you.

and through all these years, i've always loved you.

but now you decide to reject me.

i'm okay with whatever you do to me.

i'm sorry.

i love you.

fin.