Passionfruit

Since Way Back

Flashback
Chicago, IL , 2013

"Passion! Go throw on some clothes, I'm sick of this shit!", mama shouted in my ear as I woke from my deep slumber. I rubbed the cold out of my eyes before finally sitting up. I trudged over to my dresser, putting on my pink shorts and some flip flops. I hated nights like this, where mama and I went to Aunt Trina's house to get away from daddy.

"Let's go Passion!", mama roughly grabbed my scrawny arms causing me to trip a little. She slammed the front door behind us and put the key into the ignition. Daddy trailed behind her and pulled out something from behind his back.

In a matter of seconds, the windshield was broke, shattering into little pieces. The sound made my ear alone ring. I looked over to mama, and she had a look of disbelief and hurt on her face. Not because the little shards of glass from the windshield pierced her bare thighs, but because the man she loved had the nerve to intentionally harm her and their child. I shut my eyes, and leaned my head against the window. When will this end?

About twenty minutes later, we were on Aunt Trina's porch. Mama and her sat in the living room talking about their 'ain't shit babydaddies'. I stood there awkwardly not really knowing what to say.

"Passion, go to Vonny's room and stay out of grown folks business!"

I scurried over to Von's room across the hall. I walked in and sat on his twin-sized bed. He was sleeping so peacefully. His golden skin glistened in the moonlight, making him look more beautiful than he already was. I helped myself to a tour around his room. He had a bunch a comic books and game icons  around his room like a typical boy.

"Pops been acting up again?", I jumped at his voice. I turned around only to be greeted with a mouth full of gold caps.

"Y-yeah". It always seemed hard to get out my words around him.

"Typical.", he stretched out on his bed. "Come 'ere, Ion' bite", he grinned at me. I sat down on his bed once again and got comfortable.

I always wondered why my daddy acted the way he did. Was it the army? Alcohol abuse? Bills? Stress? I just hoped that one day he would get better. Better enough so that I wouldn't have to spend another spring break like this again.

"What's on ya mind Pash?", he always cared so much about me, even when we were younger. If I didn't have something, he gave it to me. If it was the last thing he had, he gave it to me. Even when were in elementary, he always stood up for me, boy or girl, anybody could catch his hands.

"Nothing, just thinking bout my daddy that's all", he smacked his teeth.

"Man fuck dat nigga", he rolled his eyes. "You feelin sad?", he asked, deep in thought.

"Yeah, I guess", he walked over to his door to lock it.

"You trust me?"

"Of course.", I trusted Savon with my life.

"Ok, lay down", I hesitantly laid down, looking at him with question. He pulled down my shorts and threw them by the door.

"S-savon what are you-", he cut me off, shushing me with his finger. He bent down lower kissing my inner thighs. All of a sudden, I felt hot and my inner area throbbed. He took off my underwear, kissing my core. I threw my head back because this felt so good, and then he licked it over and over, sucking it. It drove me crazy. I felt my stomach and lower body ache and the I felt something come out of me. Savon lapped it up. I was on a high. I had never felt anything like that before.

"You feel better?", I just sat there, nodding my head. I turned over and went to sleep. I felt him kiss my forehead before I nodded off.

Present
Passion
Chicago, IL , 2016

I woke in a cold sweat. I hated thinking of my dad. The bell rang, and everyone rushed out of the classroom. I couldn't wait for mama today, so I took the bus.

I was home within 20 minutes, and the only thing I could think about was making love to my bed.

Von🤦🏾‍♀️❤️ : so you ignorin a nigga now??

Instead of texting him, I called instead.

"Von I told you I had to type an essay. You would know that if you came to school", he hadn't been to school in weeks. After he started selling, he ditched his education.

"I been busy".

"Welllll, is my favorite bestfriend too busy to take me to work?" I really needed a ride because mama wouldn't be home until eight tonight.

"What time? You know me and-

"Yes,yes , I know you and Brooke are going out tonight."

"Why you say it like that?", he knew exactly why I said it like that. He admitted he had feelings for me, yet he asked Brooke to be his girlfriend. He always left me looking dumb or confused.

"Nothing. So can you do it or what? "

"Yeah I'll be there in 30. Be ready cause I ain't waiting for you Pash." I rolled my eyes going off to get dressed. Savon showed up about an hour later.

"How are you going to tell me to be on time when you're not?"

"But I'm not the one that need a ride. You are. Matter fact, are you giving me gas money? Because yo ass treat me like I'm yo personal chauffeur. Broke and bougie ass girl. "

"Broke? Nigga where ? I make money", I said sticking out my tongue.

"This money", he pulled out a wad of cash,"and you better stop sticking that tongue out before I put something on it."

"You such a flex, and whatever that's what you got Brooke for remember?"

"Yeah, you right.", the rest of the ride was awkward. We've been rocking since way back when so when was he going to get it together?