Pieces of Me

🎹Conformity 🎹

What is my life?
Change is a constant thing in anybody's world. But as a teenager change is basically the ever-modifying path my life follows. I discover new things, meet new people, go to new places, experience different cultures, and make new friends.
I think this is what it is to be a person, maybe more so as a young one. But as me, as a teenager, i'm also having a multitude of opinions and advices shoved my way. I must fit into a square for some people and triangle for others, but what if I don't want to be a shape at all? Maybe I prefer the round edges of a circle or to be as free flowing as water (which doesn't actually have a shape). Maybe instead of being labeled or squished into conservative or prude or trashy, how 'bout I just be me? Just wear what i'm comfortable in and not give a crap about how others perceive me or what they think. How am I supposed to discover who I am if i'm not allowed to try some of the things i'm curious about. To discover what's on the other side of that line? When i'm developing my own ideas and opinions of the world and i'm not allowed to express them or name them because someone else told me that, "no, you must act like the young lady you are" or "you need to act your age". i'm either being too mature or too young. Well which is it that you want!? Why can't I just be ME for christ's sake? But no I must conform but also have my own factual opinions.  The fact is, i'm expected to act like an adult but not be taken as serious one, and to express myself and "be who I am" but not too much! Or people may think something of you  *gasp*.    I must be who I am but responsibly. You trust me but yet give me a inch of privacy. Checking everything on all my devices and knowing all my passwords, not allowing me to have social media to connect with people my age solely because you don't like it. The truth is i'm not allowed to be myself because in this world it's not cherished to be the person you actually are inside, you have to be this carbon copy of the ideals of the people around you.