baby blue :: phan

9

"I have feelings for you"

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Phil's eyes widened in shock.

"What? Really?"

Dan pressed his lips and nodded slowly, "I knew I had to tell you because I couldn't hold it in anymore. There's something about you.." he said fondly.

Phil was obviously taken back. He didn't what words to choose to express what he was feeling at the moment. He was so conflicted.

"Dan.."

"There's something I need to tell you"

Phil bit down his tongue and felt the guilt building up inside. It just clicked to him.

Vada.

Vada.

Phil had forgotten all about Vada. He glanced down at his ring and wrapped his two fingers around it. Fuck, what am I doing? You're married for christ's sake!

"Phil?"

Phil looked up at Dan and noticed the changed expression on his face. He looked worried.

"I'm sorry.. Dan.. I don't think this is right for me to say this" Phil spoke hesitantly.

Dan tilted his head and made a questionable stare, "What is it?"

"Dan"

"I have feelings for you too"

Dan's face lit up in surprise, "Really? You do?"

Phil stared at him intensely and whispered a "yes".

"But.."

"I don't think this is right for me to have feelings for you, Dan"

No.

"Phil.. no.."

"I'm sorry, Dan. I'm married and-

"Your wife is a bitch, Phil!"

Phil widened his eyes in shock, "excuse me?"

"I'm sorry, Phil, but it's true! I can tell how the way you talked to her through the phone earlier. You obviously can't stand her anymore"

Phil just sat there, expressionless and emotionless. He wasn't even angry about the remark because it was true. This marriage was a total regret. He just wish he can go back time and fix it, but obviously he can't.

"I'm sorry, Phil. I didn't mean to say that"

"No, no. It's true"

Dan looked at him as he furrowed his brows, "What?"

Phil sighed and rubbed small circles against his temples, "All the things you've said were true, I know I can't stand her anymore. And it makes me feel guilty to say that because y'know, I'm married to her, she's my wife! But I hate that I deny these thoughts about her and I always tell myself that it's gonna be okay, but now that think openly about it, It's actually not gonna be okay"