My random ramblings

My demons

I have two demons, they are constantly shackled to my feet. One calls itself anxiety, the other panic. Most days they go unnoticed. Other days they make themselves visible and turn my world upside down. Kicking and punching me mentally. On the outside I look completely fine, but the inside is a whole different story.
   I really wish I could tell you what's going on in my head. I really wish I could. But I don't want you to think I'm doing it for attention. Really I'm not. Extra attention is something I don't need. Plus that, when you don't even know what's going on in you own head, how do you explain it to someone?
   At night I lie awake staring at the ceiling unable to fall asleep. During the day, it's hard to focus, I always seem to be in a daze. This is still all new to me, and I'm slowly learning about it. Yes, I'm aware I've missed a lot of school, but I can't help that some days I can't even bring myself to even get out of bed some mornings. An when I finally do, it's hard I keep my emotions at bay where they need to be.
   If I have to fight a war in my head every day, then I will fight tooth and nail all I can every single day until I win. They won't win, I won't let them.