Don't Let Me Be Gone~A Tythan Story

Nobody Thinks What I Think

*Tyler's POV*

I heard quiet sobs last night. I think it was Ethan because me and him have a room right next to each other. I walked in there a couple minutes after he was done crying last night, to have found him on the floor. I picked him up and set him on his bed.

I looked over at the time which read 11:59am.

Wow I slept in kind of late.

I walked out of the room to be greeted by Mark and Ethan making sandwiches.

I look over to Ethan who had blood shot eyes. I noticed he was wearing a sweater. I was surprised because it's really hot in LA. "Aren't you hot in that Ethan?" He gave me a worried look but soon went back to normal. "Not really, I'm still used to the Maine whether." He gives me a reassuring smile.

*Ethan's POV*

I walked back into my room and layed on my bed.

He can't be figuring it out that easily! He just can't. I never want either of them to find out. I just hope if they ever find out it's when I'm dead, I can't let them find out, I care to much about them.

"Hey Ethan, I just sent a video to you, can you finish editing it by tonight?" I looked up to see Mark in the doorway. "Sure Mark, it will be done in about two hours for your liking." He smiled, "Oh I'm heading out by the way. Tyler will be here if you need anything" I just nodded as he left the room and shortly after then left the house.

After thinking for a good ten minutes I get up to edit Marks video.

I sat in my chair, and started editing. It took a while, because there's some parts to where I had to make his video funny and not just plain awkward.

After almost two hours of editing I'm getting tired, I'm still not done. I test my head on my hands, and my eyes began to feel heavy. I was almost asleep until my hand slipped and hit the keyboard.

I looked up and complete devastation hit me. Marks face cam was deleted. "No, no, no! this can't be happening right now!" I looked through all the files and I couldn't find the face cam. It was pointless, I just ruined Marks video. Wow, so much for a first impretion.

"That couldn't have just happened." My breathing because pitched again, and I started shaking violently. I went to get up but hit the floor almost insantly. I made a loud thud and started crying. I couldn't stop shaking even if I tried with all of my might.

I sat up and leaned against a wall. I couldn't talk, or move. I just shook and tried to keep my breathing steady. "Ethan? Are you okay?" I hear Tyler calling from the other side of the house.

I didn't respond. I couldn't respond.

Next thing I know Tyler is walking into my room.

"E-Ethan? What's wrong?" He had such concern in his eyes. When I didn't respond he became even more worried. He slowly looked up at me, "You're having an anxiety attack, I can tell." What, how did he know that? "Do you have any pills Ethan? Please try to nod your head?" I shaking nodded my head. He walked over to my suitcase and rummaged through the pills I had. i forgot about most of the medicine I had in my bag, but they were all prescribed for me.

Once he found the bottle, he looked at the dosage amount and gave me one a drink of water. I still couldn't move so he had to try to calm me down before giving me the pill.

He slowly started to rub my back, and pulled me into a tight hug. That's when the tears started to hit me. I knew I started getting more relaxed when I started crying, I was finally able to talk. "Ethan, are you okay?" He pulled me from the hug. "N-no. I'm so very far from okay." He looked heartbroken.

"What caused you to have such a bad anxiety attack?" I pointed to the computer. Tyler walked over to it and looked at it for a good two minutes before he walked back over to me. "Ethan, I'm sure Mark won't be that mad." Anger filled in me, but I stayed calm, "Tyler, that game is a thing you can only record once, without the face cam it's useless! Mark is going to hate me!" I started sobbing again.

"Ethan, please stay calm. Mark is an understanding guy, he won't hate you." I couldn't help but not believe that.

"Hey guys I'm home!" Oh shit. Tyler saw the panic in my voice, "Just follow my lead," Tyler whispered.

"So Ethan? Did you edit the video?" Before I could even get a word out, Tyler interrupted. "Actually Mark, I made a goof. Ethan was in the bathroom and I got suspicious and wanted to see how the editing was going, and I accidentally deleted your face cam. I'm sorry Mark, it wasn't at my intention." I can't believe Tyler just saved my sorry ass. "Oh Tyler, it's okay, just please be more careful next time, that game was a one time shot." Wow, Mark wasn't that mad. "I will thank you Mark." He smiled at me before Mark walked out of the room.

"Ethan, can I ask you something?" He looked down at me, I was feeling really nervous, "Of course you can Tyler." Why am I feeling so nervous oh my god. "Ethan, please tell me the truth, are you okay?" I looked up confused at him. He continued, "I saw the anti-depressents in your bag, and the sleeping pills. And you always wear sweaters...Do you harm yourself?" And that's what hit me like a fucking truck.