4/9/17
The flashbacks hurt the most
They leave me crying on the bathroom floor
My soul screaming for help but my brain ignoring it because it's scared
Imagine what it's like to be so scared you live with what hurt you every day
I'm so tired of not having control
I'm tired of crying on the bathroom floor
I hate it and I want it gone but I don't know what to do
My soul is drowning
But I am numb
But not numb enough to keep the sadness away
Just everything else
I don't want this to be the thing that ruined me
I want to be happy for the rest of my life
But here I am crying about what happened two years ago
And my soul still hurts
