The Hidden Truth •Raura•

Chapter 37

"Laura?" I hear Maia call me. I turn around, and ran up and hugged her tightly. "Oh. Honey, don't listen to him. He broke you." She says. I nod. Rocky was standing behind her. I smile at him, and hugged him too.

"I think I'm going to go home. I don't feel good." I say and they nod. Rocky went to his car and we got in.

They dropped me off at my house, and waved me goodbye. I went into my bathroom and saw my eye make up everywhere. I stripped down and jumped into the shower. Water ran down my body, over my face.

I really need to stop thinking about him. But I cant. He was the love of my life..only mine. I can't find no one else. Crying can make me think more of him, so I stopped crying. Well..once in a while. I got out of the shower and dried myself off.

I got into gray sweats and a random t-shirt. I feel kinda bad for leaving my career and ignoring my fans and my family. I grabbed my laptop and opened it. I decided on doing one last live stream.

'My Last Stream.'

I see my views go from 0 to 10,893 views from a second.

"Uh..hey guys. I didn't really get to explain so this is a explanation stream. I don't want to talk about the whole Ross and I drama, so I'll just say it like he left me, like seven weeks ago without an explanation. So, I kinda thought it was a sign that he didn't want me anymore. So I just wanna tell you all my full feelings about this drama happening." I say.

'Laura we love you. Please don't leave us.'

'My heart is breaking. This can't be happening.'

I was on the edge of crying.

"I had a happy and awesome relationship with Ross. He made me happy, and I thought I was doing the same....I promised myself I wouldn't cry. I'm trying this rebuild myself. I'm hurting and nothing can cure it." I let out. "I kept saying to myself, was I not good enough, was I clingy and worthless? I couldn't even think about the whole situation." A tear fell from my left eye.

'This is hurting me..'

'Your worth everything! Don't let Ross let you think like that!'

I sniffed. "That night, we were a happy couple cuddling in bed. I couldn't be more happier. He was the one I wanted to see every morning. But I - I woke up to a note that made my heart break...I didn't see him ever since..I wanted to see him in the morning..but I d-didn't.." I cry out.

"Maia and rocky were the ones by my side comforting me. This is why I don't want this life anymore. I've become a different person ever since me and Ross saw each other. More of a badass. I'm not positive..I'm more negative." I say. I wiped my tears away but they fell anyway.

"So, to all my haters..thanks for putting me down, when I was already hurting. Thanks for saying rude things to me, when I knew all my flaws. Thanks- thanks for making me more insecure than before. I hope you all are happy that I actually self harm, and to the edge of killing myself right now. Thank you." I sobbed out. This is really hard for me to say. To the people that actually love me and care for me.

'Stop..Laura stop..your hurting me!'

'I can't stop crying..how can they do this? Laura. I love you. I want to give you a hug.'

'I'm hurting more then you are..'

I kept crying and crying. My eyes closed tightly. "There's nothing I can do but blame myself.. I ruined me. I kept losing and losing people I care so much for..I'm hurting myself...Ross, I'm sorry for not being good for you. I bet she can make- you more happy then you were with me..I'll try forget my feelings I have for you..I'll try." I say.

I let out a deep breathe. "I lost rydel, I lost riker..ryland. just wanted to say to you guys that..I'm sorry for standing in the way of all your careers. I hope r5 willing become a band again. Or resigned. I'm extremely sorry for everything I put you guys through.I can't forgive myself.." I cried. My eyes looked puffy, and really red.

Nobody's pov

Little did Laura know, the lynch family was watching her live stream. Even her family. Rydel was crying, tears fell from left to right. She was hurting Laura for nothing. Riker felt guilty, and ryland. Rocky hated to see this best friend hurting. Even crying. Stormie couldn't watch anymore. Shes disappointed in rydel..and the rest.

Ross was sobbing the most. He blamed himself for Laura being like this. He couldn't stand to see her sad. "I fucked up.." Ross said.

"No shit." Rocky said.

Ross glared at him, with red eyes. "I FUCKED UP AND RUINED EVERYTHING! I LOST HER AND IT'S ALL MY FAULT SHE THINKS LIKE THIS. I LEFT HER BECAUSE ALL YOU GUYS WERE MAD AT ME. YOU COULDN'T EXCEPT THE FACT THAT I WAS WITH LAURA THAT I HAD TO LEAVE HER!" Ross shouted. He stood up and punched the wall. "If anything..it was your guys fault."

"She hates me now..she doesn't want to see me..I didn't explain to her why I left..now she's self harming and thinking about ending her life because of me! Things were supposed to be different." Ross says.

"Fuck Courtney, Fuck my management. I hate her. And I'll always hate her. She's so heartless to care for anyone else. I love Laura and I'll always will. I'd rather die if she isn't in my life." He says before running up to his room.

Ryde cried. "All I wanted was to have the band back.."

"I was so selfish..Laura hates me now.."Riker mumurs.

"I'm a fucking idiot." Ryland said.

Rocky didn't know what to say. Of course he loved raura. Seeing his best friend hurt him, and that's what made him hate Ross more. But he's his brother. Nothing can change that.

Laura was still doing her last stream. There were the same sobbing Laura, explaining everything to her fans. Even too the haters.

"I will always love ross..I'm keeping my life private from now on. Yes, I'm depressed...I don't know what to do with my life now. But I'll think of something. No I'm not doing this for attention, I know that's what the haters are probably thinking or gossiping about." She let's out.

"This is the end of my stream..I hope all you guys enjoyed. I'm leaving this. Bye to all my fans. Bye to my family who wanted to keep in touch with me. Bye to..to you Ross. I need you. Bye." She says and her live stream ending.

Behind that screen. Laura cried out loud into her hands. There's no turning back now for her. Everything made her heart break. Especially, him.

-End-

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