Chapter 22
London POV :
"5678" Sean called signaling for us to start dancing. I was dancing my heart out on that dance floor of studio like a did every week . Dance was just another way for me to express myself and escape from my life for a little while.
I was apart of dance group in Atlanta that goes by the name of "The Bad Girls Club".We are a major thing here in Atlanta . Right now we are going over our routine for our annual show case that was in a few days and man was I hyped.
"Alright ladies take it from the I woke up like this "Sean called causing everybody to hit everyone move on beat and on time.
"Alright ladies that's it for today I'll see you here tomorrow same time".Sean said dismissing practice .
"Damn I'm tired" Sasha said taking a seat on the floor beside me.
"Chile Sean ain't playing about this show case". I said chuckling.
"Shit lords knows I love Sean like a brother but this nigga has gone mad over this damn show case shit we are good we ain't gone miss a move out there . "She said taking a sip from her water bottle.
"Just two more days and it'll be over Saha"I said going through my phone. I had a lot of text messages and a 4 missed calls. One from Jada and the rest from my mother.
"What does she want?" I said under my breath as I got up and grabbed my gym bag.
"I'll see y'all tomorrow I'm out "I said to the girls
" Bye Lon they all said at the same time causing me to smile.
As I pulled out my phone I went back to the call log and tapped on my mothers contact name hitting the call button that displayed on my screen. It ringed a few times before she answered.
"London baby are you there?" she said through the phone I could tell she was a little worried from the tone of her voice.
"Yes mama I'm here. Is everything okay" I said getting into my car and and connecting my phone to the speakers in the car so that I didn't have to hold my phone while I was driving .
"Oh baby I was worried sick about you I called you 3 times and got no answer ". She said
"Sorry mama I was in dance practicing for our annul show case that's in a few days. "I said sighing I know everybody is probably wondering why I don't talk to my mom much nor visit her. My mother is in a mental hospital. She's been in and out of that place my whole life . Back then I couldn't understand why my mother didn't love me the way all the other kids parents loved them . She never tuck me into bed at night . Never walked me to school. Never gave me that talk ever mother gives their daughters when get their periods for the first time. She never told me I love you until I turned 18. All she cared about was men and catching her next high. She stayed high to keep her train of thought. My mother suffers from schizophrenia. I used to be so ashamed of her growing up especially when she has an episode while we were at out somewhere.
"When are you going to come see me i miss you so much. I'm going crazy in here looking at the same four white walls "she said causing me to giggly a little.
"Soon mama soon . But guess what?" I said trying to change the subject.
"What ?" she said
"Jada's having a baby" I said smiling at the though of me becoming a auntie for the first time.
"Aww tell her I said congratulations I miss her too. Both of y'all ass need to come visit me ."Said casing me to chuckle.
"We are mama." I said
"That's why I been dreaming about fish a lot lately"she went on to say.
"Yeah that's why "I said knowingly .
"Well baby I got to go this damn nurse just came in and I have to take my meds and eat lunch I love you "she said .
"I love you too mama" I said before hanging up the phone. Now that I'm older I understand my mother illness a lot better then when I was younger. I always felt alone and never had friends growing up nobody wanted to be friends with the girl who mother had spilt personalities and was a crack head. But that all changed when I met Jada my 9th grade year in high school . She didn't care about any of that she looked passed my mother illness and the fact that I was an out cast cause for it . Then I met Ty gosh I miss him so much. He always told me to never feel ashamed of my mother that she's special and I just had to love her In special way. God gave me her for a reason and that I only get one so cherish her while I can. I never had a boy treat me the way he did and showed me a lot of the things that he showed me. I was so deep in thought I didn't even notice that my phone was ringing .
"Hello"I said turning the volume in my car up a lil .
"Hey bf "(best friend for short) it was Jada .
"Hey Hun I was just about to call you back "I said stopping at a red light .
"Mmhmm I'm sure you were but anyway I was calling you to see if you could come over Treys mothers tonight for dinner?" She said
"What time does dinner start?" I asked
"7:30" she said .
"I'll be there?" I said shoot free food I'll never turn that down.
"Okay good ill texts you her address"she said .
"How's you and the baby doing this morning ? "I asked
"So far good no morning sickness but we will see how long that will last "She said
"Okay well Imma see you guys later I just pulled up to the house and I need to hop my ass in the shower and take a good ass nap before tonight" I said
"Bye grandma London love you" she said causing me to laugh
"Bitch please get yo life" I said ending the call hopping out of the car while grabbing my gym bag making my way to my apartment door unlocking it making my way inside. Home sweet home I said locking the door behind me. My texts ringtone went off causing me to look at my phone screen as I walked into my room. "Looking ass nigga" pop up. Ugh what does he want.
Looking Ass Nigga Don't Answer🏃👀😡😠👿:
Hey I know shit not good between us right now but I was hoping we can meet up some where and talk.
The texts from future said. I wonder what he wants to talk about. I'm not in the mood for this bullshit right now .
Me:I'll think about it
I said replying back to his message and sending it. I just wanted to take a shower and sleep and until 6 and that's just what I did.
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