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Chapter 11 <3

Chapter 11

Roses Point of View:

“Annabelle Maree Williams was a beloved sister, daughter and close friend, her life was cut short tragically, I loved Annie with all my heart, she was always smiling and laughed at everything and she was the most beautiful girl on the planet. She was a caring person and helped out everyone no matter the situation, she thought of all her friends as her close family. When I was 7 Annie and I suffered a great loss, when our parents died unexpectedly, it was then when I saw the true Annie, a side to her that not many have ever seen, she was so strong she always kept her head held high and no matter how much she just wanted to give in or give up she kept on trying and it was that persistence that got her through the toughest of days” I stopped and stepped away from the microphone, I turned around to face the wall, wiped away the stray tears that had fallen while I was speaking.

Niall rose up out of his seat and grabbed my hand, took the speech and pulled me back toward the podium. He read out the rest of my speech because he knew I couldn’t bare doing it “even though Annie and I had our ups and downs we were sisters for life, we had planned to be at each other’s weddings we planned to see our nieces and nephews grow up together. It breaks my heart to think that it will never happen. I recently spoke to a close friend and he told me that god has no phone, but I still talk to him. He has no Facebook, but he is still my friend. He does not have twitter but I still follow him, this friend also told me that I was not alone he told me I had friends that would always be there to support me when I needed them, Soph my amazing best friend, Louis, Harry, Liam and Zayn my new friends that quickly became my brothers and a part of my family and my incredible boyfriend Niall, he has been my rock and helped me through the good times and the bad, he held up my world when it all came crashing down, he glued my heart back together when it shattered into a million pieces and I love him for that, thank you” We returned to our seats, I mouthed to Niall “thankyou I love you”, he mouthed back “I love you too”.

It was now time for Soph to get up and speak “from the moment that I met Annie, I knew she was special, I grew up an only child, so meeting Annie and Rose was one of the best things that have ever happened to me, she was an incredible person and always saw the best in people. She had a positive attitude towards every task that she took on, and always believes that good things come to those who wait. I know that she will be looking down on all of us Rose in particular she may no longer be with us but she will always be with us in our hearts, love you Annie may you rest in peace gorgeous girl I’ll miss you and I promise I will take care of Rose, thankyou”

I saw Soph wipe a tear from her cheek as she returned to sit next to me, I kissed her cheek “thankyou Soph it means a lot to me”, she smiled “no worries sis anytime love ya”. The minister said “harry” I turned to look at him he nodded his head and got up out of his seat WHAT THE HELL WAS HE DOING!!!!!!! All the boys got up and walked up to the stage and grabbed microphones. I was shocked, what was happening, this wasn’t a part of my plan. Harry must have done this! I swear to god I’m gonna kill him that god dam bastard. Niall reached for his guitar and Liam switched on his microphone and spoke “this song was written for us by our good mate Ed Sheeran it was Annie’s favourite song so today this one is for you gorgeous” Liam started “shut the door turn the light off, I wanna be with you I wanna feel your love I wanna lay beside you, I cannot hide this even though I try, heart beats harder time escape trembling hands touch skin, it makes this harder and tears stream down my face”

Harry took a deep breath “if we could only have this life for one more day, we could only turn back time”, they all sung together “you know if be your life your voice your reason to be my love my heart its breathing for this moment in time I’ll find the words to saaay before you leave me today” I could feel the tears coming, I couldn’t control them, it had hit me she was never coming back. I was never going to see my sisters face again; I would never hear her soft voice. Niall began “close the door throw the key don’t wanna be reminded don’t wanna be seen don’t wanna be without you, my judgments clouded like tonight’s sky” I couldn’t hold it all in any longer ”hands are silent, voices numb try to scream out my lungs it makes this haaarder and the tears stream down my face” Louis sung with deep passion looking in my direction, “if we could only have this life for one more day, if we could only turn back time, you know I’d be your life you voice you reason to be my love my heart its breathing for this moment in time I’ll finds the words to say before you leave me today”

I felt like running but where was I going to, running wasn’t going to solve my problem, nothing I could ever do would bring Annie back to life I felt as guilty as hell, if I didn’t call her to pick her us up, she never would have died! “flashing lights in my mind going back to the time playing games in the street kicking both of my feet, there a numb in my toes standing close to the edge there’s a pile of my clothes at the end of your bed, as I feel myself fall make a joke of it all” Zayn held the last note. I couldn’t stop myself I just got up out of my seat and ran for the door, I held my shoes in one hand and just sprinted, I kept running and running I could hear the boys calling out my name from behind me but I kept on going, I didn’t want to be stopped. I just wanted to be alone and by myself.

I stopped at nearby park and sat on a park bench under a shady willow tree, I looked at the tree and saw an message engraved into the tree bark Paul + Alyssa = until the end of time, everywhere I went my family was following me, as much as I felt alone I knew they were always there. I knew I had Niall to protect me, but was that enough, I wasn’t sure if me wanting to be myself was good for him, I didn’t want him to feel rejected, I loved him very much but I felt like I relied on him far too much. I picked myself up and kept on running, when I ran I felt my anger slip away it made me feel powerful the wind swept through my dark auburn hair. I went to the only place that I can now call home, the hotel.