"That Boy" (Unfinished)

"Mike"

(Shawn Mendes as the character of 'Mike.')

- Luke -
My heart was pounding; ready to burst! I could feel myself being pulled to this person, like a magnet! I kept running in different directions all around the school. Having no clue where he would be. I finally came to a halt when I could feel my legs weakening. Fatigued, I stood in the middle of the school yard trying to catch my breath. I inspected every nook and cranny of the area but found nothing. I dropped my head in disappointment contemplating weather or not I should carry on searching considering there was no trace of him. Suddenly I felt a hand brush through my hair, sending tingles all over my body; from head to toe. I quickly swung my body towards them and glared straight up to there gorgeous brown eyes. It was definitely him.

We stared at each other for quite some time. I could feel waves of nervousness radiating off of me. I was too afraid to talk to him. The only word I could seem to pronounce was "hi". He looked at me with such a passionate and romantic gaze, he gave me the widest smile I had ever witnessed on anyone's face. In that moment my heart melted and I couldn't help but smile back. "What's your name?" I asked with a curious face. His eyes widened and his mouth opened to speak "Mike" he said softly. "Mike. That's a nice name" I said with a grin. "So... the other day in the park..." I said slowly and cautiously. He stopped me from saying anything else and sighed "I know what your going to say" he said bluntly. "Well then explain" I said with a strict tone. Once again he sighed "I can't" he said. I snapped at him "what do you mean you can't!?" "As hard as this is to say. I can't fully trust you yet" he whispered to me. "Can't or won't? Besides, what the hell is that supposed to mean?" I growled at him. "It means exactly what I said" he said blankly. "Please stop asking. I'll tell you when the time is right. I just need you to trust me first; this is my biggest and most dangerous secret and if anyone were to find out..." I stopped him there. "Alright. I won't push you. You'll tell me when your ready" I said with a smile and a gentle tone. He cupped my face with his hand and said "thank you". His hands were so soft and warm. I couldn't help but hold them. I felt safe and protected whenever I was with Mike, I didn't know why. It just felt right and I had this feeling that no harm could come to me when I was around him. I closed my eyes and fell into his chest. He was so warm, like my own personal heat warmer. I felt his arms wrap around my waist and his head lean on my shoulder. I wrapped my hands around his neck and gripped myself tighter to him. I felt the heat of his body radiate from his to mine, he was so warm like my own personal sun. We were stood in the middle of the school yard just hugging; not saying a word, just embracing each other.

- Evening- at home -
I finally found out who my saviour was! We had spent the whole day together, just the two of us. I never really thought about my sexuality (never needed to). I never had an interest in anyone so I just assumed I was heterosexual (straight); not having found the right girl yet but it turned out that I was developing very strong emotions for this GUY! I had just met! I was connected to him in a way that I never had been to anyone else, not even to my closest friends Amelia and Jake, not even to my family. This connection was more on the protective and caring side, not caring as in friendship caring but more as romantically caring; wanting him to feel happy and safe, feel like he can share and tell anything to me and most importantly be himself and not be inclined that I would judge him in any shape or form for whatever reason. I keep being pulled towards Mike; not wanting to stay away from him, not for a single second. All I could think about was Mike and how I just wanted to hold him and kiss his luxurious, strawberry flavoured lips all day and night. I was staring at the ceiling, Fantasising about Mike when I looked down and realised that I had became HARD! In embarrassment I shook my head to try and get the thought of Mike out of my head. When I finally did i thought to myself few, thank god nobody came in and saw that. I looked back down to see that I was STILL HARD! "Seriously" I said aloud. "Do I really have to do what I think I need to do" I shook my head. No, I'm not going to give into my desires. I'm just going to sit here, clear my head and wait for it to go away naturally. A few minutes later my arousal had finally passed and I could think about other things which didn't peek the interest of affection. I sat on my bed thinking; wait how am I going to tell my family and friends I was GAY! I started to panic "oh no, oh no. What am I going to do?" I said to myself while pacing up and down my bedroom; stressing myself out. I sat back down trying to calm myself. I had tried to think when I heard my mother shout up the stairs "Luke, you have a visitor!". Who would be at the door asking for me I thought to myself. "Coming!" I replied back to my mom. I left my bedroom and walked down the stairs. "Mike?" I said in shock as he stood in my doorway.