Sorry

Part 5

And then the interviewer called us to continue the interview.

"Miss Y/N?Are you okay now? Feeling better?"
" yeah, lets just start so we can end it sooner." I replied.
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"So wbout your lovelife.Miss Y/N can you tell me about your lovelife? "
"Uh, i have a boyfriend before but broke up with me." Fake smiling them.
"Awwe...we feel sorry for you Y/N."
"Thanks"
" what about you Jungkook?"
"Ermmmm. I don't have one since birth." He said stuttering...
I thought he was going to admit that he had one and it was fudging me. But he refused huh. Maybe armys will get mad.? Fangirls? Bitches?Why can't they accept that their idols will have  a relationship with someone.? Someone who's not them? They get mad easily. They overreact. I thought.

After 30 minutes of interview finally it ended.
I let out a sigh.

I was walking away home until I saw a figure that caught my eyes. Who's that? I thought. I slowly reached the figure and realized that it was a man. I eavsdropped because he is talking to his self.

" Hmmm. Why did i left her? Fuck me." He said sobbing.
I thought i should comfort him. A fudging guy also did it but i wanted to help wven though he did it to someone also.

" Ahjussi. Gwaenchana?" I saod tapping my right hand on his shoulder..
he turned his head facing me. Whadaaa fudgeee????
."Jungkook?"
"Y/N"? He asked confused? He stood up hugging me.
"Jungkook let go." But i said it gentle. He was crying definitely he was hurt. I don't wanna hurt him like what he did to me.
"Jungkook, im going home."

"Please. Stay for awhile. I need a shoulder to cry on."
" Jungkook ,i need to go. I'm going to meet Jinyoung."
He loosen his hug and looked up on me.
" Why didn't you wait?" He said angrily. So he is angry now. For lending my shoulders? Fudge him!!!.
"Wait for what?"
" why didn't you wait for me to come back?"
" what do you mean?"
" you got yourself a boyfriend?! I am still ypur boy friend Y/N!!!! I didn't broke up with you! I just left you because i had to!" He said shaking me.

I was hurt but i love someone and i dont have any feelings for him anymore.
" Do you hear what you're saying? You left me! You fucking did! You said you wont but you still did! This is bullshit!"
" you call this bullshit? Y/N i left you becausw i had to!"
" why do you have to leave me fucking alone!!"

" i was thinking for our future Y/N! I was! If i don't get a job yhen what? Are we going to eat with bare rice? Or are we gonna be a beggar begging for money and food? What will happen ro our kids in the future? What will they eat? Are we going to make some more and more tons and tons of kids and not minding our future?

Not minding on what we will eat tomorrow?  Are you thinking for our tomorrow?  The next following days? We don't know what will happen Y/N! I did this whole thing not for me not to get famous not to get more fans not to get attention. I did this for you.!"

I can feel each venom of his words. I hurts me thinking that he left me for something. But he didn't left me for such a thinv. It was just for my sake and for ours. I was crying and i didn't realized.

" you even got yourself a boyfriend." He smirked painfully.
It hurts me a lot because he suffered,  he worked hard for me and for my future but all i did is stay at home not minding his hard works. Not minding that he still care about me. He is even thinking about me. All i did was living my life with another man.

All i can say is sorry.
"Sorry" i said hugging him.
" stop it." He said pulling away from the hug.
" Jungkook! " he walked away wiping his tears leaving me sobbing and hugging my knees.

"Jungkook,  im so so so sorry."