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Chapter 1
He was there, seated beside me. We we're laughing, staring at each other's eyes and admiring every move. We we're in love, that's what's for sure. He gazed upon me for a second, my heart stopped and then quickly raced. JACKIE MAISON, this was the name that filled my heart, my soul and my very existence. He held my hand placed it in his heart and said "I have to let you go". I was stunned, shocked,Did i hear that right? Was he saying goodbye? No it can't be.
"Massie, come down and eat your breakfast!" The sound of my mom's voice quickly woke me up. I looked at the time, it was 6:30am. Great. I'm gonna be late. I quickly washed my face, dressed in my uniform and combed my hair in place. That'll have to do. I descended upon the staircase, grabbed a piece of bread stick and ran to the door; but my mom caught up on me, "Denise Massie Wilson, won't you eat breakfast?". I grabbed the doorknob and quickly said "No, I'm gonna be late!" I got in a cab and told the driver to step on it.
It was a lovely morning, and if i wasn't running late, I would've admired it; but since i was 5 kilometers away from MCA (Monticello Christian Academy), I had to keep myself company. I thought about that horrible dream. I remembered that almost same scenario, in first year, except for that last line. The line which struck right through my heart. "I have to let you go" what did that mean? It has been 2 years since we last talked to each other, or at least since we were last so close to talking about taking the next step. I was taken aback. What happened to everything we had? Did he forget about it? Was he fed up? All these questions were in my mind, I didn't even realize the school was right in front of me. What was happening to me? I'm not my normal self today. I paid the driver and moved out of the cab. I looked at my watch and let out a great sigh of relief. 7:15am, 15 minutes until the bell rings. I paced on the first step, ready, to once again see the man of my dreams.
It's in the middle of October, MCA was busy with activities. Halloween was coming up, everyone was talking about the upcoming dance. I wonder if he will... I stopped at the thought. I wouldn't hurt myself anymore. With my shoulders squared, eyes held high and heart ready for what I am about to see. I opened the classroom door and froze for a moment, there he was sitting in front of the room, smiling, fair complexion, eyes - a dark brown, hair - gelled in place, he was smaller than me; but he was cute. I was dazed for a moment, then heard the bell ring and rushed to my seat to put down my bag and books. I was completely haggard. My friends greeted me and we moved out of the classroom for the morning rights. As usual, the assigned classroom led the prayer, anthem and oath to the country. It all came in a blur, my mind was still on that dream and on him. Would that ever happen? Would he say goodbye? I was thinking these questions while we we're reciting the pledge. It was just the start of the day, but i'm feeling stressed already.
As we we're heading down the stairs, my friend Alex noticed my anxious look. Everyone always see me smiling or laughing; but today was different. This day was when that dream happened. Alex asked, "What's wrong? You ok?". I couldn't answer, this was not the right time to tell her. I wouldn't get myself composed if i told her now. So i just told her, "yeah! everything's great! just worried about the quiz in Social Studies later" oh snap! I forgot all about the quiz! It turns out, I really am worried about the quiz. Oh well, I'll just study later. We entered the classroom and sat on my seat, which was at the back of Jack. When will i ever get over him? Probably, Never.
I was busy reviewing my history book while Jack was in front of me, laughing with his friend. I couldn't help but admire his chuckle, so angelic and comforting. I wished he was laughing with me, together. I missed the old days, when he and I were having fun. Concentrate! You need to study!, i thought to myself; but who could concentrate with all the noise? and more importantly, who would ever think of studying when the love of your life is seated right in front of you. I just sighed and started reading. Social Studies was our first period, I was not going to fail. This day has been chaotic enough to interfere with my academics. Then before I knew it, "Class, keep everything away, let's start the quiz". "ok, you can do this". My inspiration was sitting before me, surely this was not going to be a hard quiz, right? Ma'am is nice, she's not strict. No big. Jack passed the paper to me, I hesitated for a moment, then took a big breath and grabbed it. That wasn't so bad Why am I acting like a psycho? Stupid dream, I said to myself. I scanned the paper first and went on to write my name. The first question was easy, I remembered reading it, or at least finding it. Then it all came down to the fifth question, i skipped that part; and now it's the only one blank. Think! I looked up, and saw the answer, Jackie DeShannon. He was always the answer to all my problems. Jack, I would always love you. I skimmed my paper once again; and thought quietly, Jack would never be replaced, he is the one my heart calls out to.
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