One more night

Chapter 3

I run my fingers along my closet of clothes. There were many colors I could choose from, all the clothing. Most I barely wore, just sat there collecting dust. I barely wore dresses, but today I thought should be the day. Grabbing a couple I lay them gently on my bed, twirling my finger in my hair debating which one should be on my body. I grab the 4 unwanted dresses putting them carefully in the closet leaving one flat on my bed. I snake my fingers around the red fabric licking my lips nervously. Slipping my arms in the sleeves, the dress drapes over me. Fixing it. It immediately sticks to my body. Showing every curve, my lips lifting into a smile. I felt comfortable for once in something tight... something revealing as it pushed my breasts up rounding them perfectly.  Grabbing some nude stilettos, sliding them on. Standing up I wobble holding onto the wall smiling to myself.
HONK!
I hear from outside grabbing a bag, putting Vans in my purse, making sure my phone was at it's full percent. Walking outside feeling the humid air making it's way around my body. Hopping in the car I smile at my friend.
"How do I look?" I blush looking down
"You look amazing... beyond amazing. You are hot Karma" Kimberly giggles. "Lets go"

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We turn down a street as I play with my hands nervously, honestly it has been a while since I've actually had fun after well... that's for later. Pulling up to a nice, huge house we park. The yellow paint slowly chipping away, people on the lawn with cups as well as the porch, dancing on each other or some people by themselves in the corner glancing on their phone as if they got a "text message" every second.
"It'll be fun. Just relax" Kimberly smiles reassuring me with a small rub on my hand. Smiling back I open the door stepping out fixing my dress one more time. Walking to the front door I open it, exposing a sea of heads, smoke waving around and the smell of alcohol piercing my nose. I got a couple mean mugs from girls and glances from guys. Denying boys left and right. I slowly find a table with cups grabbing one. Before I could take a sip I feel hands gently grab my waist turning me around. The pizza man.
"Nice to see you here!" He yells trying to overpower the blaring music. I nod blushing slowly removing his hands signaling I wasn't a touchy person. He understood.
"So are you having fun?" he asks against my ear.
"I just got here but after a couple cups of... whatever this is I think I'll be good" I giggle. We both talk, making me completely forget the cup in my hands. Until a girl grabs him. Waving goodbye I bring the cup to my lips taking a couple gulps feeling the burning sensation. The syrup like liquid squirming down my throat. 1 cup. 2 cups. 3 cups. Stop counting. My vision a little hazy I feel my throat tightening. Oh god. Running around to find a bathroom my hand covering my mouth. I push a door open immediately freezing. The boy in my class holding a girl. Her shirt completely ripped off her body. My eyes burning through them. His pants off, just boxers exposing all his tattoos and muscles.
"May I help you?" He growls coming closer to me. I gasp quickly slamming the door in his face. I managed to find the bathroom freaking out silently to myself. I didn't need to puke anymore if anything I needed a getaway. Tears slowly streamed down my face as I try to find myself. Knocking on the door rips me away from my panic attack, as I wipe my tears away with toilet paper. Opening the door I try walking by the unknown person until he stops me.
"Have you been crying" he speaks softly.
I look up at him. His eyes soft with emotion, his lips curling down into a frown.
"What no that's crazy"I snap.
"Hey chill out I was just asking." He speaks. His emotions leaving him, his eyes got darker. Were they always so blue?
"Well I was just about to go have fun with a couple friends so if you'd excuse me" I try to say proudly masking my sorrow.
"You're pathetic look at you a mess.... and ...and " he pokes my stomach "that dress really shows off extra unwanted "curves" like anyone would want that" he laughs. I can feel my anger boiling as I bolt by him clenching my teeth trying to find Kimberly.
I find her dancing with a boy shoving myself through the crowd.
"Kimberly!" I yell through the music. She could hear me since her eyes search the crowd locking on to me. She noticed the tears, the anger, my hand covering my stomach, she noticed every flaw..
She excuses herself and hugs me embracing me into a hug that made me melt completely into tears. I just wanted to hide to disappear into her because just at that moment HE comes through the doors of the living me and looks at me. Quickly grabbing Kimberly's hand I burst through people making it to her car.
"Just drop me off at my house and you can come go back" I softly speak.

"Tell me what happened Karm" she whines as she drops me off in front of my apartment. Faking a smile I grab her hand and hug her, pulling away I look back at her.
"Childish sorcery" I mock trying to make sadness into happiness. We both giggle, waving she drives away leaving me alone. Dragging myself into my room, I was drained emotionally and physically. I had no power to do much.
"Like anyone would want that" I repeat to myself over and over until I fall asleep.