love like this

nineteen

"tulongan na kita"

vic look up and gently smile. she cant explain. di niya ma pinpoint kung ano yung nararamdaman niya dahil na rin it was shocking and yet painful,
in a sense na hindi niya inakala na minahal din siya ni mika, yung daks niya.

vic tried to convince herself na maybe sa alcohol lang yun but she's also not dumb to not know na na ma lessen yung inhibition ng tao when under the influence of alcohol.

but to vic, those words na sinabi ni mika, yun ang mga exact things na gusto niyang madinig, the words na inaasam niya galing kay mika pero those words mattered when mika left her or the days when she cried herself to sleep, or when she knew na wala na pala yung daks niya sa pinas kasi ng modelo sa ibang bansa, o yung time na mika dated richard.

past. vic thought

but it was different now dahil alam niyang iba na yung tingin niya kay mika. maybe part of her will always love her pero yung puso niya? yung puso niya belonged to dennise.

vic held mika as she tried to stand up. pina akbay niya yung left arm ni mika sa shoulders niya tapos tinignan niya si dennise sa right side nito.

they carried mika patungo sa kwarto at pinahiga nila ito, vic made sure na comportable ito sa pag tulog. she covered her with a blanket and look at mika's angelic face.

im sorry daks. im sorry. vic thought.

vic glanced at dennise. she's worried, na baka dennise would panic o baka nainis, o nagalit but all she could see on dennise' face was concern for mika, kaya nga they went back because dennise insisted kay vic na i-check yung bestfriend niya, kaya nung time na hindi pa bumalik si vic, napag desisyunan ng doctora na puntahan ito baka vic needed help.

dennise smiled at umuna ng pumunta sa kwarto nila ni vic. umupo ito sa kama at binalikan yung mga pangyayari.

she heard all of it, lahat ng sinabi ni mika kay vic. she saw how mika cried at vic's arms, she couldnt imagine na yung mika na nakilala niya na confident at maganda turned out to be in pain.  for dennise, witnessing it is like feeling mika's pain, ramdam na ramdam niya ito and she cant help but feel sorry for mika but she could not also deny the fact na kumirot yung puso niya dahil alam niya na mika would always have a special place in vic's heart.

"den?" Napukaw ang atensyon ni dennise ng namalayan niyang pumasok si vic sa kwarto. tumabi ito sa doctora at hinawakan ang kamay nito. dennise waited for vic to speak, alam niyang mahirap din ito sa part ni vic. when she heard vic exhaled as if releasing her stress, tinignan niya ito.

"it's okay" dennise said as if reminding herself than  kay vic. she could sense that vic is not completely convinced sa sinabi niya. kaya she smiled and squeeze vic's hand.

tinignan naman ni vic yung kamay nila and said. "if there's one thing im sure as of this moment dennise.. it is that i love you." vic explained while looking at dennise, assuring her the moment na tinanong niya itong maging girlfriend, yung din ang mga oras na ibibigay niya yung respect, love and loyalty nito.

"alam ko" dennise answered back immediately dahil alam naman talaga niya, she knew how sincere vic is. alam niya kung gano siya kamahal kahit nagkakilala sila for a short period of time.

vic smiled softly. "but ara" dugtong ng doctora sa sinabi niya. huminga ito ng malalim at nag consider sa sasabihin niya. she hesitated for awhile, she's scared to admit losing vic.

"im scared..." sabi ni dennise habang humuhugot ng lakas. " i'm scared to lose you.... i think i always am vic" mahinang sabi ni dennise habang nakatingin sa paligid ng kwarto nila.