Redemption (Laito X reader) (Diabolik lovers )

11 Chapter

___POV

As Dita was walking out I could feel a tier roll down from my eye to cheek. I couldn't look him in his eyes. He didn't do it but still as I just glanced to him I could see her kissing him again. I wanted to forget this but it kept replaying in my head. Over and over again. My head felt as filling up and I couldn't think it hurt. A sharp pain freeling in and out as if a sharp needle spindling in my head.

I looked over to his green emerald eyes looking as if tearing up. He looked at me with such compassion and yet I couldn't repay that. I saw that she'll take what she thinks I love and if I show my love even just for a second hell get hurt and I can't have him hurt. I love him too much for that.  He wont survive. No I won't survive.  I cant be stronger. I know it hurts. I feel as if my lungs are filling up in smoke and I'm drowning. Reaching for air. Reaching to scream. But I can't. My lungs don't allow it. I can't make a sound. My mouth open and in tears and heart pounding out of my chest. But I can't continue like this. He will get hurt and all because of me.

She walked back in as I tried to dry up my tear and seem strong.  I took a deep breath and held my head up high. She walked over to me. Slowly. One heel clinking after the other. My stomach in a twirl and soul about to show but I bit my lip and and held my tears as looking stronger than I actually am. I need no emotions because all they bring is pain and misery and that only makes them a weakness. A weakness he doesn't need now.

"So how do you feel my love? Your love mine and all mine to play with!" She said smirking as she took of the fold. It plumeted to the grownd. I felt a small realising feeling at the corners of my mouth. They felt free and yet in pain for all the time they were tooken up and strongly pulled back.

"What makes you think I still love him? After what he did it's damn near impossible. He's just a rat. A low level son of a bitch that did something to petray me and nothing else. I have no feelings for him. I feel blank when looking at him. So in what universe are you hurting me when hurting him. You can have him. He's just a playboy who seduces women and let's them go. So I'll see you on the other end after he's done with you too. He means nothing" I said raising my head up so it would seem true and yet inside I felt dying. My heart scrunching up and all felt lost. And he looked worse. Broken. But I can't let him continue.

"I know you love him. Your soul says more than you let it. Your eyes and body when I kissed him. He might just be what you said but not only that to you. Aren't I right?" She smirked looking at him whilst standing beside me and pushing on my sholder and her hair down flowing on my face as I blew them off whilst she looked at me.

"I don't. You're confusing me with the girl you want me to be. I don't love him nor do I care. So what makes you think I do or ever will again" I smiled as her face changed she looked so serious when she got up and let go of my sholder and then she made a smile once again.

"If you say you don't and the way you say it I know you do" she whispered as I bit my lip. I felt my body tighten up and tears wanting to rise yet I took a deep breath whilst she looked away to not feel the same way. I need to remeber what he did and not in pain but in anger. I need the old me. I need the one who doesn't care. The one who doesn't feel. The one who would kick her ass and go away in a second. But no. My magic was no use. The chains tightened when I moved so it was magic and I felt too powerless to care.

"So why don't we have have some fun with Laito. Lets see if you can survive. Lets see if you cry or give in your soul. " she sired as she dragged a tray over to him leaving me like this. The tray trembled back and up. Metal clinking as the wheels screened when she dragged it closer to him and layed it down.

____Laito POV

(Y/n) doesn't care. She said it and I couldn't stop repeating what she said. It went over and over again in my head. I didn't care about Dita and what she said or what she's about to do. But (y/n) ,the girl I love doesn't love me back. I ruined it.