Redemption (Laito X reader) (Diabolik lovers )

16 Chapter

___POV

I got dressed and found myself on the balcony thinking about life and it's simplicity. We always consider life complicated but in reality it's not. It's a relying process. A bird relies on food and gets it trough work. A notary example of what's the main infrastructure of life. In life you can get whatever you want of you work for it. But have I worked hard enough? Have I done it all to ubtain what I want? Was the pain enough? If we're considering Laito as the object of my objection. He becomes my dream but is it enough to cause the scene to be unseen. Will he see me as the object of his objection? Am I his dream or is he mine? Can it all be enough?

A million toughts flew trough my head. A self depricating damsel thinking of what's to come and what had already been done. I have a million questions for him yet I am afraid. I'm afraid to ask. Will he even know the awnser?

My toughts got inturupted by a light  knock  on my door that glid so slightly it was bearly heard to me trough the wind in my ears from the outside of the view. I turned back and walked trough the dark room towards the heavy oak doors. To open up and see a face. A oval long face with a fair complexion. Light pink petite lips that followed to a small button yet heavy nose to even higher blue eyes that made staring into a oceans seem small. The face smiled at me in sincerity yet it's soul looked devistated. Better to describe as traumatised. A memory distribution. A memory of loss that would seem sad but now pissed more to the bone. I looked up and down to the cunning figure of the woman I front of me forcing a smile on a sad and disturbed face.

"Hey" I smiled over at Dita sincerely. As I looked at her posture change. She loosened up and her soul let out a small shine of happiness and more likely relief.

"Hi! The guys are waiting out front and I don't really want to be there alone with them given what's happened" she looked at me concerned as I felt her heart beat fasten. Her tought were roaming all over the place. Devistated of a lost. Reminiscing of the old. And terrified of the new and most importantly scared to her deepness, to her heart of what's to come. Her toughts were fling over all the place as black phantoms taking apart my thinking space and all that was left was a blank tought of her and what she might think of the world ,the people who live in it and small toughts of me and the world we could have been and the world we are and the world that may be. The same toughts had occurred to me before and not only concerning her but aslo Laito. Reality. More importantly Laito. About us. I lost him once and I lost us more now I have to get it back. No. Not get it back. Build it again to perfection this time.

"Shall we go?" She asked as I got lost in her toughts and eyes. I noded and followed her trough the hallways and then the door leading outside. The flowers made a rising smell appear in my head as I inhaled the warm shine of the sun and the memorising smell of the roses surrounding the palace in little droppers of petals each giving out a powerful scent and making my head turn to dust.

"Hey! Ready?" Katrina turned the widest smile as I felt her soul fog up between the roses and sun overtaking my head and numbing it. The energy was all around and never to be lost and I felt weak in my knees as my head turned all around and a tiny bit of nausea followed. But this can't take over now. I can't faint. I need to keep a clear mind. I need to keep viligance.

"Yes!" I sighed trough my teeth trying to keep focus yet my head was blurring down. I need to sit down. I felt as if falling down in a endless pit and I could never get out.

"Are you alright love?" Laito whispered in my ear as all started to talk to each other yet I couldn't hear a thing but Laito's voice piercing trough my ears slowly as honey diving down the tree like satin. And so sweet and calm. Like a cloud leaning down on my sholder and easing my pain.

"Yes" I smiled as he looked at me in doubt. "Really I am. I just need to sit down" I smiled slowly as I felt him pick me up. A rush of a surprise came over me as I felt his hands intervene with my body as a force stuck me up. I tucked onto his shirt within seconds.

My eyes went black for a second and when I opened them I was in the chariot that was to take us to the palace of Ditas father and where he lives in.

I opened my eyes to worried faces all around me. They looked so scared and concerned at the same time. The souls screeching up in a second. I looked down at my hands. Vains popping out in black streams as my long nails screeched out and the symbol on my hand glowed so bright. My eyes hurt as so much pressure glided on them. The symbol making my hand pulsate in pain. The pain resembling sharp needle pains. Going trough my hands sharply ripping apart my muscles as if strands or threads and piercing trough making my blood boil so hot it made me grab my hand as a terrufiouson ran over my body and trough my bones as if cold shivers. The same shivers that would happen when comming from a phantom possession. Yet I didn't feel anything swirling in my body. No one else in my mind. It was empty. No one was possessing me yet I couldn't help but think the pain resembles that. I tried to calm myself down slowly but it was no use as blood rose up boiling.

"Are you alright?" Katrinas voice pierced trough at the same time as Ditas yet it all seemed like mumbles to me. I couldn't her clearly. My head was spinning and I couldn't look around and see anymore. It seemed to be going black.

"She clearly isn't. The question is as to why she's acting and perhaps feeling like this?" Reiji ajusted his glasses as I felt the symbol stop pulsating and my head strain aside slowly as the pain started to dissappear.

"I'm fine now!" I explained loudly to stop their bickering as I got up and my body seemed normal now. I sat up as I felt a rush up my neck. A nauseating feeling run trough my body from the musk and sharp smell of Reiji comming up close to me to check my pupils.

"Well..." He started to state as the nausea got stronger and I couldn't hold back the smell anymore. Nor myself.

"Stop" I shouted interoupting him as he backed away looking surprised. Laito came up to me and held my hand as his sweet smell twirled in my body making me calm.

"Is everything alright?" Dita asked as I nodded slowly.

"Yes. Reiji's colone was too nauseating for me. I'm sorry. Can we not get of topic? "I asked sharply as they looked at me in surprise. "Let's go?" I widened my eyes as they all nodded and we took off.

Laito and Dita with Katrina were in the same chariot as me. And to be honest I don't think this was the best choice of separating all of them. Dita and Katrina will get in a fight and I feel to faint to intervene if I have to.

I tried not to think about that as I looked outside to the pines all around filling the air and land vastly passing by us in spit seconds.

"So why did you think it was okay to kidnap AND POISON US?" Katrina broke the silance loudly. I sighed at the same time Laito did.

"Not now" I sharply looked at them as they both jumped a little.

"No. I need to know!" Katrina shouted as anger of her not listening to me came over.

"You start and you're walking there!" I exlaimed as they both silance and battered angry stares at me.

It was a quite ride to the palace. Well on the outside. Katrina and Dita kept glaring at each other yet I felt out of voice. My body felt like being tooken over in a constant and I couldn't concentrate and the sudden laps of nausea didn't help. I just hope it doesn't happen the moment I don't need it most! The moment I need to keep the most vigilance. But all I can do is hope. What is all this and why do I feel like this?