Emma's P.O.V.
Why is he here? Why does it always seem to be this way? If he is going to keep on breaking my heart, he needs to leave. I'm tired of losing love with him that I always seem to lose. You know what? If that's love, it comes at too high of a cost. If I feel like shit every time I fall in love, then I don't want to be in love. To be honest, I'm scared to fall in love now. Because of HIM.
"Hey." Louis states and rubs the back of his neck.
"Hi." I really don't want to be talking to him right now.
"So you and Harry, then?" He asks. Part of me wants to say yes to see his reaction. The other part of me wants to tell the truth.
"No. We're just friends." I state.
"Oh." He looks slightly relieved. Why should he care? He kicked me out of his life.
"How can you just stand their and say "oh"? I'm tired of playing your games that you make the rules of."
"Emma, you can't make you understand."
"Of course I can't. That's always your excuse. It could've been me and you, just the two of us. But, no, you chose to break my heart more then ever. Even after all I've done for you. I've given up so much for you!"
"I never asked you to! I'm not good enough for you, can't you see that?"
"You're lying to yourself, now, just to make yourself feel better. I can't have you anymore, apparently, and I don't know why I didn't see it before. I hope you're happy now." I walk away before he can say anything else. The boys have returned and Cam is back on Liam's lap and Zayn's arm wrapped around Perrie. I sit back down next to Harry.
"What's wrong?" He asks.
"Nothing, it's nothing to me now." I look back toward the bathroom. I stood up to him. I did it. He can't bring me down anymore and I really hope that he is happy. It make take a little bit more time for my broken heart to heal, but it's definitely getting easier.
Louis's P.O.V.
It's definitely getting harder for me. Her words play through my mind over and over. She thinks that this makes me happy? It's the complete opposite. My heart aches every time it see her and I feel like complete shit. Even thinking about her just makes me even more upset. I wanted things to be okay. I wanted both of us to move on. She is trying to, but why can't I? I try so hard, but it doesn't do me any good.
I wish that I had a time machine. I wish that I could've just said no to Sophie. That I wouldn't have let her convince me to have sex with her. That I would've noticed Emma long before just 4 months ago. I need to get all these feelings away. I push through people to find the alcohol. I find a can of beer and start to drink it. It burns the back of my throat, but it doesn't burn as bad as losing Emma.
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After more cans then I can count, I head outside. Alcohol is running through my veins and someone grabs my shoulder. Zayn turns me around.
"Dude get back inside, the party is just getting started." He tells me.
"Don't tell me what the fuck to do." I snicker.
"You're drunk, come on let's get you some water and a seat."
"Damn it, Zayn! I SAID NO!" I yell. Everything is going blurry.
"I don't care what you say. You're coming with me. Man, what's bothering you? The old Louis would only drink water and Pepsi at a party. What happened?"
"Life happened." I start to stumble all over the place. Zayn grabs ahold of me to help me walk inside. The world spins around me. I see shapes, now, and everything seems so loud.
"Why is everyone screaming?!" I ask Zayn.
"No one is. Damn, how much did you drink?"
"I lost count." I grab onto Zayn tighter, because I feel like I'm about to fall.
"Let's go get you some water." We head to the kitchen. I my eyes seem to want to shut and now I feel like babbling.
"You're such a good guy, Zayn. Too bad I'm nothing like you. Sophie's pregnant and I'm the dad, I'm getting married, I'm a complete fuck up, huh?" I laugh. I'm laughing at my poor life decisions.
"What the hell? Is this true?"
"Yep." I smile. I try to reach for another beer, but Zayn smacks my hand.
"What are you, my dad?" I laugh again.
"Stop Louis." Zayn says.
"Aw is Zayn pissed off? At wittle old me?"
"Dude, seriously?" I snatch a beer from someone before Zayn can take it away.
"Cheers to fuck ups!" I yell and take a chug.
"Dude stop!" He knocks it to the ground. My vision goes dark and I feel myself fall to the ground.
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On The Outside ( A Louis Tomlinson fan fiction )
Fanfiction[COMPLETED] Emma and Louis have been best friends for as long as they can remember. They are the closest friends you could ever meet, but Emma has feelings for him that she can't deny. She doesn't want to ruin what they already have, but she can't s...
