Lies

Chapter five

During the whole day everyone kept trying to talk about the tapes in a code but I kept on dodging the conversations. I really didn't want to talk about it, especially since they know what I did and I don't. I haven't even seen Massie and maybe she's too scared to show her face. It's kind of stupid as fuck because I'm not mad at her like at all. I was involved in this and maybe just as much as she was. It's all of our faults and I don't even know who all of us is. I really want to finish the tapes so I can get to mine but at the same time I really don't want to hear mine. After school I got on the bus because I was fine trying to avoid conversations. Once I got off the bus I went straight home and went up to my room to start another day with the tapes.

"This next one is for little miss plan maker. You just wanted to get back at me because labeling me 'home wrecker' just wasn't enough to please you. It just sucks how you didn't know what you really did. But it doesn't matter because that's for another tape. This one is for you, Bella the new and improved high school it girl. Even though there are like five and you're among them. If you remember in the last tape how Massie changed up the story and twisted it on me well I also shared how it was Bella's idea. And you made another brilliant idea to ruin my life yet again. And the crazy thing was that it was on the same issue. You wanted to continue to get back at me because you wanted more revenge for someone who isn't even your real friend. I mean real friends don't lie to each other right? I mean your friends are all fucked up so I wouldn't know. Let's start with the day after everything was dialed down and nobody cared about my new label even though it was never going to go away. You decided that I should suffer more for my actions, that I didn't even do. So you decided to throw a party. Great! Note the sarcasm. Of course I wanted to go because everyone was going but mainly because Lia made me, thinking that it would be fun. But obviously it wasn't because you didn't get over it and wanted me to pay. Your intentions were more harmful than they were meant to be. I got to the party feeling uncomfortable because I was third wheeling because I went with Lia and Clay, her boyfriend, and because I didn't know if anyone considered me as a friend anymore. I got inside of your house. It was huge everything looked perfect just like your life. I looked up and saw you and your clique walking down the stairs everyone glaring at me. This made me feel somewhat ashamed even though I didn't do anything. Well I guess it was only you and Massie you glared at me everyone else was just something I imagined in my head. After I talked myself out of lecturing myself because I did nothing wrong . I decided to get a drink from the kitchen. Another one of my lousy drink mistakes. I took a sip and ten minutes later everything went black. When I opened my eyes everything was white and a bright light was shining in my eyes. My head hurt like hell and my arms were tied. I look up and you and Massie were in front of me. You both had smirks on your faces. You slapped me out of no where causing my face to sting. You told me that's what I get for messing with your friends and to think about it next time. You told me your plan was to throw a party to that I would come and you would teach me my lesson because no one messes with the people you are close to you. You yelled at me and made me feel like shit. I don't think you realized how much of a bitch you were being because you were highly intoxicated. But that's not a fucking excuse. You planned all of this shit when you were sober so you don't get a fucking pass. You're dating the worlds biggest douche bag so maybe you guys are just the same way. But going back to why you were hurting me. You did it because you wanted to help the people who are close to you. Well if someone is close to you if they have other intentions and are just using you to get other things done ? Don't know what I mean? Listen to the next tape or maybe it's the next one? I don't know. I hope your happy Bella. Because your precious plans killed a high school student who helped you on your math homework one time and gave you a pencil when you didn't have one. I guess those just weren't in your plans. Were they ?"