Lies

Chapter Twelve

I quickly put the next one in anxious the just finish them. I wonder what the next one is if it could be mine.

"This one is for someone who you wouldn't really expect this from. I wouldn't reveal the name until the end. I was at the mall and I walked into H&M and you were there with one of your friends. You were trying on clothes. You looked good in it obviously because you're you and you literally look good in anything and everything because you're skinny and it's just you get the point. I'm not like that because I'm a little chubby you could say. I look at myself at fat because of all my insecurities and people like you but it's not your fault that I'm fat it's my fault. It's just that people like you make me feel bad because I want to be like you but that milkshake that I want just tastes to good then the bikini that I want to fit in to. I could say im jealous is of you but you hang around the worst people ever so I wouldn't say that I'm jealous at all. All the guys you like are dicks but you give them a chance. You're always nice to me and everyone else. Well that's what I thought until I saw you that one particular day that the mall. I came out of the dressing room to show your friends your outfit. You said and I quote
"Ew looks gross on me I look like Emma"
"how?"your friend asked
" because it makes me look fat"
You both giggled and then you both went into the changing rooms and I left the store. What you said kind of hurt my feelings and every time you saw me at school you were nice and I tried to forget about it but I just couldn't. You were being fake with me, you thought things about me and I want even fat compared to the other people at school. Not trying to be mean and inconsiderate but it's true. I'm not going to lie like you do Makynli."

I gasped when she said Makynli. I couldn't believe that she would say that. I mean she always talked about how it's so annoying how all girls think that they're fat when they're not. Did she really even say that or is Emma just trying to make all of use mad at each other to start some crazy drama while she ain't around to see it?She wouldn't do that though. But Makynli wouldn't even do that either ugh. I just put in the next one. I love all of my friends no matter what they do. Well.....They didn't even mean to make her end her life and maybe what I did could be even worse.

Honestly I just can't judge any of them because I am apart of them and what they did to Emma and I'm here to blame but what did I do that was so bad ?