For the love of our friendship- (Nash Grier / Cameron Dallas)

Chapter 12

(normal pov but after she left nashs)

Once I get home I instantly go upstairs and jump onto my bed.I pour my stuff out of my bag onto the floor and take off the clothes I have on. I go to my dresser and put on a grey high low top and some light skinny boot cut jeans.Pull on some Nike elite socks, the pink ones. I sloppily pick up my pile of clothes and bring them to the washer and dryer. Once one loads in I head downstairs and get out my homework and put some music on.

After the first load is done I put the clothes in the dryer and do the delicate cycle like scarfs,Bras,underwear and some shirts. I call my mom to check in and she's doing fine. She gets to come home Monday evening she thinks.I get text after I hang up with my mom.

From:Ally

ONE MORE WEEK IN JAIL AKA SCHOOL

To:Ally

YES and ONE MORE MONTH BEFORE MY DAD COMES HOME!

Which I just realized..Todays the 16th of November, He comes home on December 16th!I got really excited and started jumping and dancing around the house.

From:Ally

Realllllllly???

To:Ally

YESSS IM SO EXCITED. I miss him so much.

I did I missed him like crazy. I've been trying not to think of him because he's just so far away and I can't just have him around when I miss him so I just try to avoid it. I go downstairs and search for something to eat.I grab an apple from the fridge and slice it up and get some peanut butter. Dipping it, is delicious.

From:Ally

I'm sure you do, I can only imagine. What's up?

To:Ally

Doing chores around the house.

I'm hopeing I can get some homework done.

We will see

I finish up and get my backpack out and get all my work in front of me on the floor in front of the tv. I turn on my pandora and sit on the couch and just let my thoughts take over.

Is it wrong to like or be crushing on multiple people. For example if I was liking someone and they like me back and we date is it alright to still have small crushes on other people. I'm perplexed at my world right now.My mood swings are in full swing and I can't relly stop it it's not for natural reasons, ladies will understand. It's different, sometimes I feel like crying over the smallest things and sometimes I just want to lay on the floor and not get up.

Or the smallest things hurt me which normally is pretty tough. I get insecure so fast now when I really shouldn't care.I feel like exploding and I push it farther back in my mind. I'm scared I'm gonna snap on someone I love and I'm gonna hurt them. I don't feel like myself and I can't fix it.

I remember feeling this way once before but only fora short amount of time.It was the first time my dad went away for the military. About 2 years ago and the only thing that got me through it was the things he taught me. He taught me how to play piano and how to play the guitar. I wasn't any good but I practiced when I was stressed and I got to be pretty good.Would it work now? I haven't done it since but should I?

I look across the room in the corner by the bookshelf was my guitar on it's stand. I sat there remembering all the times it helped me and just stared at it.I stood up and ran over to it and sat down with it in my arms. Feeling the strings and strumming a few chords.

I felt it again and sat down on the couch with it resting on my lap and switched my pandora to Adele radio.Rolling in the deep came on immediately. I remember learning this a long while ago and I instantly knew how to play along. I remembered how to play like riding a bike.