The lost meaning of Love.(on Hold)

Chapter 8

"Hey, Jill wake up!" Dylan whispered/shouted into my ear.

My eyes flung open to the sound of his panick.

"What- what's going on?!" I asked getting up and on my feet. but stumbling into Dylan's arms.

"Nothing, just thought maybe I would trying it because you wouldn't get up." he chuckled as I playfully hit him in the arm.

"That wasn't funny." I groaned.

"Haha. let's start you training since we got a little distracted last time." he smirked. Me imaging the kiss all over again.

"I like being distracted."

"Maybe after we get the training done." he chuckled.

"Maybe?" I smiled raising my eye brow at him.

"Yep come on."

He led me outside. I know what he's doing, he's trying to train my legs to walk without pain. I heard once before that you have to walk on it if it's hurting. That sorta thing.

"Okay walk." he said releasing me.

I stumbled a bit but got back on my knees determined to get this over with so I can feel his soft lips on mine again.

I began walking with little pain. I continued my pace and walked into the woods. I couldn't feel the pain much anymore, so to get rid of the tiny handful of pain that remained in my leg I ran.

"Jill! Stop!". Dylan shouted after me.

"Haha! try me." I said slowing down wanting him to catch me.

"I will!" he said laughing and jumping on me.

I fell and he fell beside me. we kept laughing until we didn't have the strength to anymore.

"Wow Jill. your amazing." he said pulling me closer to his body,Our legs entangling.

"Touché" I said putting my arms around his neck enjoying the feeling of safety and warmth.

He pulled me closer to him and his lips to mine. He kissed me softly and gently. I kissed him back with force. Then he started laughing his lips still on mine.

I pulled slightly away from his lips.

"What's so funny?" I asked confused.

He slowed his laughing, looked at me and stopped laughing after a little bit.

"What's funny?" I asked again.

"It's just, were practically strangers. But I think I am falling in love with you. " He chuckled.

Fear struck through me. I can't be loved. the only person I've ever loved was my mom. But no ones ever loved me back. my mom just took up for her responsibilities. even if it was a complete mistake, like me.

"What? No, no." I said getting up.

"Look Jill I'm sorry I shouldn't have said anything." he said getting up also.

"I can't be loved, no one can love a mistake,NO ONE." I shouted tears rolling down my face.

"That's not true Jill, don't say that to yourself!" he growled.

"I should have stayed there so my dad could've killed me. I- I don't- I can't be loved, I never have." I admitted slowly dropping to my knees.

"JILL! don't talk like that. don't you ever say that again. it's not true. I'm being to love you, one day I'll prove it I will!"

"Dylan. I don't know what- what love i- is." I sobbed placing my head in my head still in my knees.

"I'll teach you, Jill, you have to stay strong, please stay strong." He said kneeling front of me and using his finger to lift my head up. after I gave in he cupped his hands around my face and said.

"I won't give up on you, ever."

........DYLANS P.O.V........

After I told her I would never give up on her she sighed and pecked me on the lips.

"Come on miss. depression, let's go home."

"Home?" she asked.

"Oh sorry I guess I assumed it was was our home, sorry." I said rubbing the back of my neck.

She giggled. "I think I like it."

I laughed then she sighed.

"Oh yeah, I need that when I get home." she mumbled to herself. it was to low to be talk to me.

"Need what?" I asked out of curiosity.

"Um, I don't wanna talk about it." she said.

"Okay we'll talk when we get home, let's go." I said picking her up and slinging her over my shoulder like a bag of potatoes.

"Yeah let me down." she whined hitting my back playfully. man she's something else. haha.

"Yeah- I don't think so." I said walking back towards the house.

"Fine then." she sighed and gave up.

**

We entered the house and I finally put her down.

She playfully glared at me and retreated to her bag. me laughing.

I walked over quietly to look over her shoulder to see what she was getting. she let out a breath when she grabbed..a bottle of pills..

"What's that?!" I asked.

"Um, nothing." she said stuffing them back in the bag and she got up and looked at me.

"Don't play games." I hissed and bent down to pull the bottle out of her bag.

I read the label and got up and looked at her, completely shocked.